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- 3y
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Like I even signed a pledge to not do anything to a child because I’m so freaked out and I feel like I get attractions. And I hate it so much. So please any advice or tips would be so helpful.
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you are not alone! i have POCD tied to a real event & it’s so difficult to manage, but i’m in a much better place. the best advice i can give is to not assign any moral weight to thoughts. they’re just thoughts, they’re not good or bad. they just happen because you’re human. second, ruminating & questioning are not helpful at all! they’re compulsions that keep us stuck. you don’t have to answer every question that OCD throws at you. maybe i’m a pedophile? maybe i liked that child? maybe whatever... these are all unanswerable questions that OCD LOVES & no answer will be good enough. sitting with uncertainty is key. lastly, i’d say work on forgiving yourself. POCD is such a shameful, debilitating disorder. it makes you doubt everything. remind yourself that you deserve love, you deserve good things, and you can forgive yourself for whatever thoughts your brain throws at you. i hope this helps at least a little! remember, you aren’t alone. i’m here sending you so much love & support! :)
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Thank you so much!!
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- 23w
I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
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I'm struggling with pocd it feels very real and I'm at a point where I feel I need to go to confess to the police stuff I know I haven't done but have false memories of doing and I feel like nobody thinks like this and very alone.
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Hello 😭, so uhm I’m kind of in the point of my POCD where I’m just tired. I just need to get it all out and get some sort of instruction of how to just idk live? So for me my childhood is pretty blurry. I have a few real event blended with false memory events there but other than that I’m a csa victim. And the way I tried to cope? By fetishising nyself, making CP of myself, seeing my life goal as being used, raped and a prostitue. Self destructive behaviour through talking to pedophiles and seeing my only worth as if I was sexually attractive. Which made me kind of numb to CP as a coping mechanism I guess. And heres’s where my main event of REOCD/false memory ocd comes in. I have a few events in my life when I’ve accidentally stumbled across CP ish mangas or just plan abuse and not had a big reaction. Some of them I even liked the story. And my ocd LOVES playing with it, making me truly believe I enjoy and get of from CP. I’ve also had quite a few dreams. A few days ago I had a dream about me getting triggered by something I did in the dream. Which I now can’t figure out if it actually was a dream. But also moments overall where I’ve unintentionally touched my private part while my siblings are in the room or when I found a guy 2 years younger than me pretty in 4th grade. Or a few of my only friends who turned out to be younger than me, and I had talked about sexual things (like fan fictions, my trauma ect) with them. AHSHB I absolutely hate ruminating and I’m tired so so so so so so tried 😭 idk help me? Please TT
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