Like I even signed a pledge to not do anything to a child because I’m so freaked out and I feel like I get attractions. And I hate it so much. So please any advice or tips would be so helpful.
you are not alone! i have POCD tied to a real event & it’s so difficult to manage, but i’m in a much better place. the best advice i can give is to not assign any moral weight to thoughts. they’re just thoughts, they’re not good or bad. they just happen because you’re human. second, ruminating & questioning are not helpful at all! they’re compulsions that keep us stuck. you don’t have to answer every question that OCD throws at you. maybe i’m a pedophile? maybe i liked that child? maybe whatever... these are all unanswerable questions that OCD LOVES & no answer will be good enough. sitting with uncertainty is key. lastly, i’d say work on forgiving yourself. POCD is such a shameful, debilitating disorder. it makes you doubt everything. remind yourself that you deserve love, you deserve good things, and you can forgive yourself for whatever thoughts your brain throws at you. i hope this helps at least a little! remember, you aren’t alone. i’m here sending you so much love & support! :)
Thank you so much!!