Ahaha triggered

There have been. I think I’m in the back door spike because I’m not feeling anxious anymore and like searching for thoughts. And now my brain is on this thought of being bored and like I’m stuck on it but I don’t feel anxious. I don’t really feel anything. And so of course that makes me feel bored

@Anonymous& Ah, OCD's last breaths, it's uphill from here

@Virumaa I hope so! It’s kinda convincing me it’s true but at the same time I can feel that inner frustration towards the thoughts

@Anonymous& Not only that but they've gotta be familiar to an extent. I'm sure it's not your first time having these thoughts and that says sth about their nature. You've got it. :)

@Virumaa It’s my first time having them and understanding what it is and not running away from what’s causing me anxiety. I’m not sure why I feel bored towards him

@Anonymous& And kinda apathetic. But I was told it’s because I’m just numb and burnt out from all of the anxiety

@Anonymous& Aha, I'm not sure about the boredom but anxiety does cause a lot of numbness. It's good that you're not running away, maybe relaxing more could help with bouncing back from the numbness

@Virumaa I think I feel kinda bored towards everything honestly but because my ocd is fixated on my relationship it’s like pinpointing him. Like not excited happy normal nothing just blah

@Anonymous& That makes a lot of sense. I think the OCD could be making this seem like it's about your partner and how you feel towards him rn when it's actually just what you're going through rn.

@Virumaa I think so too honestly. It just took this conversation for me to connect the dots hahaha

@Anonymous& Yeah that seems to make the most sense. Glad u did haha

@Virumaa Me too lol

I’m so sorry. That wasn’t my intention. But you aren’t alone

@Anonymous& oh no please don’t feel bad at all. it’s crazy how we all have the same thought processes yet it still feels so real ya know

@🤎 Yesss it’s insane

Cant wait for being in denial to stick around as a thought