raj123
- Date posted
- 4y
NihonWarrior516NihonWarrior516
- Date posted
- 4y
Way I see it is if you have constant thought about something you are more likely to consciously think something you donāt personally agree nor want to think about. May have been a genuine question but it sounds like you were trying to find an answer to your problems and the way you worded it scared you. Seems like you fear you are in denial and itās a big part of it, you fear that you are only straight because itās the normal in society even now. Thatās pretty much everyoneās fear because thatās the only real possibility for a lot of us. But possibility is in everything my friend, you have to accept that anything could happen but nothing will happen unless you want it to.
raj123raj123
- Date posted
- 4y
So is it hocd or am I in denial. I was striaght before hocd, i even had 2 girlfriends
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- Date posted
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- Date posted
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