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You can talk to me! I have had hocd in the past.
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Snap or insta?
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@raj123 we can talk on here. I have no socials.
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@arcticoconut Aight, I'm a boy, 15 years old. I have hocd since 3 months. I dont know if its hocd or no but I was striaght before. I've even had girlfriends. Why cant I develop crushes on girls anymore. The way I looked at guys before, I dont look at them in the same way nowđ
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@raj123 Has someone taught you that being gay is wrong?
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@arcticoconut No ! Being gay is ok but I dont wanna be gay. I think I was homophobic before. But after hocd, I'm thinking that it's ok to be gay, But I cant imagine myself with guysđ
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@arcticoconut Are you a boy/ girl and are you straight Gay
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@raj123 My advice to you would be to not put so much pressure on yourself. Sure, you may be gay, or maybe you're straight. And that's ok.
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@raj123 I'm a girl and I'm asexual.
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@arcticoconut also straight tho
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@arcticoconut You're asexual or straight
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@raj123 I'm both, I describe myself as asexual heteroromantic.
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now theyâre just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself itâs two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself itâs alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if itâs just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but itâs confusing. On top of that Iâve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like Iâd be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk Iâve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that Iâm straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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Iâve completely lost myself. I canât focus on my studies, I canât go to the gym. Dang it I canât even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I donât feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. Itâs like itâs forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesnât change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life itâs ocd. Iâve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and Iâm back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I canât keep living with this.
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Like I canât think straight. This is making me doubt everything Iâve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I donât. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go âoh so you like it you must be gayâ or the other one where Iâm not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that Iâve had my whole life and my mind goes âsee now youâre not into them youâre gayâ like itâs so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or âa thing of the pastâ. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and itâs so weird. Today Iâve spent my whole day thinking about it like Iâve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just wonât let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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