i’m so scared i don’t have pocd and i’m just a pedo. i tried using photos of little girls on google for erp and my mind would go ‘maybe you ARE attracted!’ and then my anxiety would get the better of me and i’d have to stop. but my mind keeps telling me ‘you want to keep looking at the photos!’ but i don’t. or maybe i do? i can’t tell anymore and it’s driving me insane!!!!!! i’ll go for a walk and i’ll go through the park to see if there are kids to gauge a reaction and my mind keeps telling me ‘you’re just using erp as an excuse to try to see little girls!’ but that’s not me… why!??? i never had these thoughts 2 weeks ago…

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Anonymous321

Date posted: 4y

You aren’t a p. Ps do not feel the worry about it. Also attraction isn’t something u feel bad about. If u were rlly attracted, u wouldn’t feel bad

LiamC1

Date posted: 4y

i appreciate your words. sometimes my ocd makes me really feel like i’m not a good person. my mind has always tried making me seem like a worse person than i actually am. i start therapy tomorrow and i’m so excited to possibly get some relief.

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