So my boyfriend and I moved 7 hours away which is when my rocd kicked in. And it makes me feel like I always want to run home and when we go back to visit I won’t want to come back blah blah blah. And I know this is all fear and I know the need to run home is to escape anxiety and go back to a place where I didn’t feel anxious and had “certainty” but I don’t know exactly what to do with this feeling

And it’s saying “do you really want to live with him and move away from home” when this is all I’ve ever wanted and I’m so stressed. I don’t feel like myself at all and I am exhausted. I just miss comfort and security so much

Hello! I’ve been through that situation (well, I was only about 2 hours away). I struggled a lot the first couple of months, but then it finally became fun (as I had initially expected and wanted). I missed my parents so much when we moved and that definitely added to it. I actually didn’t realize that my symptoms then were of OCD. So it’s good to have this knowledge in your corner!

I miss my grandma a ton! It sucks because I can’t feel anxiety anymore so it’s even more convincing or real feeling

@Anonymous& But you think my ocd is really latching onto homesickness as some kind of proof?

I’ve been told that OCD latches on to what’s most important to us, so it’s definitely possible! Your grandma and boyfriend are likely very important in your life!

It’s weird. I feel completely out of love and like it’s my truth because I haven’t had any anxiety for a while and I think it’s the back door spike. And like it’s still a frustrating feeling and doesn’t feel right but it feels like I can’t argue with my thoughts anymore

@Anonymous& Have you talked to a therapist here yet? I would definitely recommend it. This sounds a lot like my OCD symptoms. Up until my first really rough OCD spell (for lack of a better phrase), I’d have moments where I was unsure about my (now) fiancé. Back then I was able to brush them off. It’s been more difficult lately. I do attribute it to the engagement. I think big moves affect those with OCD

@cjv I have an appointment tomorrow. It’s my second one