So my boyfriend and I moved 7 hours away which is when my rocd kicked in. And it makes me feel like I always want to run home and when we go back to visit I won’t want to come back blah blah blah. And I know this is all fear and I know the need to run home is to escape anxiety and go back to a place where I didn’t feel anxious and had “certainty” but I don’t know exactly what to do with this feeling

Relationship OCD

cjv

Date posted: 4y

Hello! I’ve been through that situation (well, I was only about 2 hours away). I struggled a lot the first couple of months, but then it finally became fun (as I had initially expected and wanted). I missed my parents so much when we moved and that definitely added to it. I actually didn’t realize that my symptoms then were of OCD. So it’s good to have this knowledge in your corner!

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

I miss my grandma a ton! It sucks because I can’t feel anxiety anymore so it’s even more convincing or real feeling

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous& But you think my ocd is really latching onto homesickness as some kind of proof?

cjv

Date posted: 4y

I’ve been told that OCD latches on to what’s most important to us, so it’s definitely possible! Your grandma and boyfriend are likely very important in your life!

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

It’s weird. I feel completely out of love and like it’s my truth because I haven’t had any anxiety for a while and I think it’s the back door spike. And like it’s still a frustrating feeling and doesn’t feel right but it feels like I can’t argue with my thoughts anymore

cjv

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous& Have you talked to a therapist here yet? I would definitely recommend it. This sounds a lot like my OCD symptoms. Up until my first really rough OCD spell (for lack of a better phrase), I’d have moments where I was unsure about my (now) fiancé. Back then I was able to brush them off. It’s been more difficult lately. I do attribute it to the engagement. I think big moves affect those with OCD

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

@cjv I have an appointment tomorrow. It’s my second one

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous& And this has been going on for months since we moved. Happened as soon as we did. And I was experiencing horrible anxiety and urges but not so much any more

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

And it’s saying “do you really want to live with him and move away from home” when this is all I’ve ever wanted and I’m so stressed. I don’t feel like myself at all and I am exhausted. I just miss comfort and security so much

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