cozymushroom
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- 3y
cjvcjv
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Hello! I’ve been through that situation (well, I was only about 2 hours away). I struggled a lot the first couple of months, but then it finally became fun (as I had initially expected and wanted). I missed my parents so much when we moved and that definitely added to it. I actually didn’t realize that my symptoms then were of OCD. So it’s good to have this knowledge in your corner!
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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- 3y
I miss my grandma a ton! It sucks because I can’t feel anxiety anymore so it’s even more convincing or real feeling
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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- 3y
@Anonymous& But you think my ocd is really latching onto homesickness as some kind of proof?
cjvcjv
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- 3y
I’ve been told that OCD latches on to what’s most important to us, so it’s definitely possible! Your grandma and boyfriend are likely very important in your life!
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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- 3y
It’s weird. I feel completely out of love and like it’s my truth because I haven’t had any anxiety for a while and I think it’s the back door spike. And like it’s still a frustrating feeling and doesn’t feel right but it feels like I can’t argue with my thoughts anymore
cjvcjv
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@Anonymous& Have you talked to a therapist here yet? I would definitely recommend it. This sounds a lot like my OCD symptoms. Up until my first really rough OCD spell (for lack of a better phrase), I’d have moments where I was unsure about my (now) fiancé. Back then I was able to brush them off. It’s been more difficult lately. I do attribute it to the engagement. I think big moves affect those with OCD
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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@cjv I have an appointment tomorrow. It’s my second one
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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@Anonymous& And this has been going on for months since we moved. Happened as soon as we did. And I was experiencing horrible anxiety and urges but not so much any more
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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And it’s saying “do you really want to live with him and move away from home” when this is all I’ve ever wanted and I’m so stressed. I don’t feel like myself at all and I am exhausted. I just miss comfort and security so much
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