Totally get it 🙂 that’s almost the exact same story I had myself growing up when sexual orientation OCD hit me actually. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It is tough and draining. But you have a whole lifetime with moments filled of strength, resilience and wellbeing in front of you 🙂 . Allow yourself to be okay with not knowing 100% your sexuality. Thoughts, feelings, attractions, responses etc all ebb and flow and most or all of them actually don’t require our hypervigilant assessment! Our brains are just working too hard on the things that trigger our obsessions for something that doesn’t even need figuring out to begin with!