Really struggling with Sexuality OCD, whether it’s OCD or I’m gay and in denial. I’m in a relationship with a man and I don’t want to be gay but I’ve come up with a list of things that I have done throughout my life that I feel like are proof that I’m gay: - making sims/characters in games gay - watching lesbian porn - interested in men and women on tinder once - looked at girls onlyfans accounts - watching lesbians on youtube/tik tok - following lesbian on instagram when younger - feeling the urge to kiss girls when drunk a couple of times Thoughts?

You're asking for reassurance here girl, and by giving it to you it is only strengthening your ocd. Please look into ERP and mindfulness techniques :)

Its so normal for straight girls to do this. But it’s also normal for a gay girl to do this. It doesn’t even matter what you have done in your past. Be kind to your younger self and forgive yourself for whatever you did. It doesn’t mean anything, all that is is now, the present moment. I have done several things in that list and that doesn’t make me gay? I am a straight girl and I remember even kissing my best friends when we were younger and enjoying it! But I am not gay today, it’s something a lot of girls do. I don’t want to reassure you and make your ocd worse but this is just my experience.