You're asking for reassurance here girl, and by giving it to you it is only strengthening your ocd. Please look into ERP and mindfulness techniques :)
I feel like I need it 😭 I’m in such a panicked state right now
@annabelcoddington Trust me. Right now you feel like you need it simply because you are in the panicked state. Breathe, do something you like to do to try to get your mind off of your thoughts! Listen and dance along to this, its really weird but I promise you it'll help get your mind off things 🤣 https://youtu.be/MFmr_TZLpS0
Its so normal for straight girls to do this. But it’s also normal for a gay girl to do this. It doesn’t even matter what you have done in your past. Be kind to your younger self and forgive yourself for whatever you did. It doesn’t mean anything, all that is is now, the present moment. I have done several things in that list and that doesn’t make me gay? I am a straight girl and I remember even kissing my best friends when we were younger and enjoying it! But I am not gay today, it’s something a lot of girls do. I don’t want to reassure you and make your ocd worse but this is just my experience.