I'm the same spot!! I found some good videos on YouTube by Peterson and awaken love on rocd they help a lot on learning on the exposure and treatment. If you havent yet check them out.
I am in the same exact boat
Like does your brain say i wanna love him more. What if theres another person out there. Have i explored enough? I wanna be with him...i love him
@Anonymous help Well, my theme goes more like this: He adores me, is absolutely perfect, we know we are a perfect match & I should be totally secure, but I ruminate and obsess over any girl who was ever in his past. Every past relationship even if it was a decade ago, makes me sick. Compulsions oftentimes for me are: social media stalking all of his exes and trying to “put pieces together” which is totally unnecessary and unhelpful by the way, and my other big compulsion is reassurance seeking so asking him if I’m the only person he’s felt this strongly for, only person he’s done XYZ with, most special and serious relationship he’s had etc etc
@Anonymous help However I used to be obsessed with making sure I’d dated and explored enough yes
@RelationshipObsessed I had three boyfriends before him but mostly they didnt work out. And its like it makes me worried i guess