i keep checking and doing compulsions related to pocd so i am kind of relieved at least. i know i don’t find little girls attractive and that’s my obsession and intrusive thoughts speaking and trying to influence me. i’m not afraid of being near kids as i’m certain i wouldn’t do anything to harm them, but the back of my mind says ‘no, you just wanna be near kids, sicko.’
my minds been going from ‘oh god im a pedo’ to ‘oh god i’m not a pedo why do i have these thoughts’
can anyone relate? i do not want to be the only one going through this. i do not want to be a pedo.