I don’t like that I have developed this form of OCD. Part of me wishes that I could’ve formed any other one, this one hits way to close to home to me. It touches upon something that happened to me as a child so it feels absolutely disgusting for me to be struggling with this. It is pretty much going to ruin my life and I don’t know how to keep living anymore with this. My convulsions are horrible, I know logically I would never EVER do anything to hurt children. I spent so much time in my life working with kids and loving kids so for this to manifest out of nowhere is horrible. I seriously don’t think I can live with this. How do some people live with this, I wish I knew peoples success stories because it feels like I will never not feel this way now. I can’t eat anymore, I can’t sleep, I just feel constant intense anxiety, I don’t want to leave my house, and I just don’t want to live anymore. How am I supposed to be able to even live anymore?

@Anonymous take it step by step!!!each day do something that makes you happy!!!you can cook your favorite meals!!!you can color or paint or draw!!!listen to music and dance around you’re room!!!go outside and take a walk or go drive around with the windows down and feel the wind or look at the sky and admire it!!!just know you are not alone in this!!!you will get through this I promise you!!!!💖💖💖💕💕💕💕💞💗💗💗

@_abigAil.26_ I wish I could go back to when I felt normal and fine. I was happy and I was excited and now I just feel like a danger. I don’t want to be stuck living with these thoughts anymore and if I have to live with them forever there is literally no way I can. I hate that these thoughts of being scared to subject children to abuse that I have experienced as a child makes me feel like the most horrible person ever. I loved children, I was actually going for a career that focused on working with children and now I can even imagine doing anything anymore. It is such a trigger for me now and it really just feels like my life’s over. I have told three people about these thoughts and we all agree that they are not who I am, but I still can’t get rid of them. I logically know that I wouldn’t hurt children in the same ways I was hurt, but I can’t stop thinking that maybe I could because why would I suddenly have these thoughts now.

@Anonymous you have these thoughts because ocd know you will never do the thoughts!!!ocd is such a bully and tries to make you believe you are a horrible person when you are not!!!dont give attention to the thoughts bc you are giving power to them and it will make them grow stronger!!!take deep breaths ik it’s hard but all of us on this app understand you and we are here to support you!!!you are not alone in this!!!