Two months battling hocd which turned into tocd. This past week my thoughts went from “what if I’m a man” to “I am a man” (I’m a 24 year old female who’s never questioned her gender before this). Today I was on Reddit and someone posted in a tocd subreddit that “this is not ocd, this is just fear and confusion”. I am absolutely mortified- considering I don’t have a history of ocd, maybe I really am using ocd as an excuse for my thoughts. All I know is since these thoughts started, I’ve felt nothing but constant despair and agony. I stopped going to work- I feel crippled. Sometimes I even tell myself “ok I accept that I am transgender” then I start sobbing and crying nonstop because I know deep down this is not what I want. I’m hopeless. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone.

Ocd is literally fear and confusion thats what it feels like. I got the same issue. Why tf do we go thru all of this it doesn't make any sense

So does this mean I’m actually transgender but I’m confused about it?

@U12394 Sounds like reassurance seeking

@U12394 Just dont go reddit because you do realize people with OCD including myself say all the worst case scenario

That person on reddit is not you

What theme are u struggling with

@U12394 Hocd or soocd and trans ocd too. Im male. It all feels real i hate it so much, sometimes i dont even wanna live and i hate when people try to make me give into to the feelings. This isn't who i am and the fact that my brain and thoughts are going against my values and my identity pisses me off

@RememberWhoYouAre. I totally understand you. I am going through the same exact thing. It’s very difficult dealing with this theme because it’s a theme that’s steals ur identity from u- which is technically all we have. SMH. My thoughts went from “what if” to “I am” I’m so scared. All I do is cry all day

@U12394 Its the same feeling ... the ,"i am" i hate it, dnt let others confuse you tho. Keeo fighting dnt give in

I think maybe they realised they don't have tocd but that's okay it doesn't mean that you dont have it ^^ If you were transgender you would feel uncomfortable with the gender you were born as and feel dysphoria about being a woman. If you've never really questioned your gender I think it's safe to say you're just stuck in an ocd loop right now. I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. I have suffered with tocd as well which seemed really real at the time

Can you please share the techniques that helped you get out of it