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Wow that’s great you are working hard on coping ! I’m in erp, just really hard theme for me- I’ve had a lot of other themes, I’m currently resisting the urge to ask him questions and just sit with uncertainty
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Yeah that’s a great place to be! Not asking questions is the hardest. Just curious, do you have any triggers around nudity in movies? That is like a 10 on the hierarchy for me.
HopeHope
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I started in 2019 with a psychologist then went to Rogers outpatient day program for 5 weeks, saw my psychologist again once a month, was good for about a year and a few months but slacked on my erp, was doing a lot of rumination and had a bad relapse, trying to recover from the relapse now, glad it’s turning a corner for you! The treatment definitely works- and maintenance is key!
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Thanks Hope! I’m in a bad spot right now, so it helps to hear some encouragement. It’s awesome you are doing this work to recover from a relapse. I think i have a lot of anxious thoughts about “oh my god what if I’m good for a long time then I relapse” and really, it’s all about not beating yourself up for it and getting back on the horse as they say. Was this your experience with your relapse? Was it hard to deal with everything that it brought up?
HopeHope
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How did you cope ?
HopeHope
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I feel like I’m living in a nightmare
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Yes I do. All of my ROCD triggers are around my partner not being satisfied with me and looking for love and sex elsewhere.
HopeHope
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How do you cope ?
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Exposure and response prevention therapy is a big one. My exposures have included putting up pictures of sexy ladies all over the house and watching my partner look at them. I also am working through my mental blocks more generally and building a strong foundation of self love and self acceptance. I am trying to accept the general uncertainty of life, come to terms with death, and accept that I may perhaps end up all alone. However, I know all the love I’ve been searching for I can give myself. I would really try to start doing exposures, it helps get over that initial hump.
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I don’t have any triggers with nudity in movies but I can see why you could, not asking questions is so hard omg
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I struggle with reviewing past convos, events and then doubting them and in turn wondering about cheating even though their isn’t any - it’s such a mind bleep 🤬 , my heart goes out to you bc I know how horrible this is
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Thank you ❤️ And my heart goes out to you! It’s not easy for sure. I’ve found though (and this is just my recent observation) that I was spending a lot of time complaining in my mind about how hard it was over and over again. And complaining to my fiancé and some friends about how hard it was, and that the constant thinking about how hard it was was making it harder. When I told myself that this pain was bearable, I was able to cope with it a lot better. I told my friend that I couldn’t get out of bed all day because I was so depressed, and he said “you can, you just chose not to.” And that may seem harsh and unfeeling, but since I know he cares about me I viewed it as incredibly inspiring. I realized I could in fact do the things I told myself were too hard to do.
HopeHope
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Yes I agree, acceptance of it is huge. It’s true we can do hard things 🙏
HopeHope
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How long have you been doing erp if you don’t mind me asking ?
AnonymousAAnonymousA
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3 months! It’s been finally turning a corner recently. What about you?
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