I am scared of being myself and being judged by other girls. I am 19 years old and struggle a lot with trusting that other girls want to be my friend. I have had a lot of trouble with this since I was 15, where I experienced cyber bullying by the “popular” girls. Now I have a fixation that every girl that is popular is mean and I am scared of these girls, but it seems like they are the ones I want to be friends with. How can I stop wanting to be friends with the popular ones (the ones that are loud and say the “right” things). This is also the reason I developed HOCD because I couldn’t understand why it was so hard to make friends with girls but so easy to talk to guys. How can I solve this? I am severely depressed in college and lonely and have no idea what to do.