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Did u do it on ur own or with the help of a therapist?
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At first i did it on my own then i uses two therapists. One gave me medicine (prozac) and the other therapist was a hypnotherapist from England
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@Anonymous help Thanks for the info ! Are u still on prozac or any other medicines?
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@ryandiamandis Im off of both at the moment trying to cope my ocd without meds i reccomend taking meds until you feel like you have it under control
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@Anonymous help Good luck coping w it! I don’t want medication until there are no other options tbh
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@ryandiamandis Ah ok
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Omg that’s great!!! 💖 did you go from totally freaking out that you were gay then bi and now straight? Because for about like 3 months I really thought I was gay but now I’m like what if I’m bi because my attraction fully came back for my boyfriend. Sometimes I even feel confident I’m straight but I know I still have a long way to go because I’ll still get triggered and anxious and etc
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Dont worry! Ive been in the bi stage you are on your way to revovery. Yes i freaked out hard. Insomnia suicidal thoughts self harm the whole sha bang. Its good that u feel that confidence i did as well at some times. Because thats the real true you.
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@Anonymous help Thank you so much! 💗
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@Whyyocd You will be fine i know its hard to know that but if i made it out so can u
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I would love to ask a ton of questions. I dnt feel any anxiety i keep getting groinal responses, and stupid automatic thoughts in my mind, "i am" since im a male too now this hocd is playing with what if i act feminine or act like a women. It feel real because anxiety isnt present but i legit don't want to live
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Dont worry! Look up mirror neurons for groinals it says alot. And dont worry about the acting feminine i had that in the begining and now its gone. You will live through this trust me
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@Anonymous help Mirror neurons thanks for that ima search it up. Also did u have HOCD dreams?
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@Anonymous help Are mirror neurons for groinals on youtube?
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@RememberWhoYouAre. I guess i just looked it up online from my therapist
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How did you do it? I’m struggling because it feels so real and I feel like there is heaps of proof that I am gay :(
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I know it feels real but its alright its not you. Your heart is more powerful for the brain keep fighting for what you want
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Hi. Was there days where you felt you fully believed you was gay. And that you was lying to yourself and start to ruminate on past events even though I’ve had 3 girlfriends always been attracted to women??
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Did you ever feel like you actually liked one of your friends or that you were attracted to them?
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Yes. I had urges to even hold her hand my brain kept trying to convince me
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When you were starting to get better, did you ever have back and fourth days? Like some days or moments you felt confident about your sexuality but the other days you didn’t? I apologize for all of the questions 😅
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Yes absolutely
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How did you get past the intrusive images and groinal responses and not think they meant anything?
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You don’t want something to happen is this enough?
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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trigger warning!!!!!! I’m really scared right now. I’ve been reading Elle Warren’s articles about her experience with HOCD/SO-OCD, and it feels so similar to mine. She went through the same fears of being a lesbian, felt distressed by her attraction to women, and spent hours ruminating, Googling, and analyzing her feelings. She even experienced groinal responses and revisited old memories, just like I do. Eventually, she had a moment of realization in college when she flirted with a girl, and everything clicked. She now identifies as a lesbian. I’m terrified that the same thing will happen to me. I thought the OCD fears were supposed to never be true and that HOCD thoughts are usually just compulsions that don’t end up being real. But reading her story, it’s like I’m seeing my own experience mirrored. What if it clicks for me, just like it did for her? What if I realize that I am a lesbian? Elle’s story makes me so scared. I thought my feelings of attraction to women were just OCD-driven, and now I’m questioning everything. I thought I was straight, but now, reading her journey, I’m wondering: could my OCD fears actually be real? Elle’s experience was very similar to mine: • She got distressed when she thought she might like women, not relieved. • She spent a lot of time ruminating, Googling, analyzing, and comparing. • Her attraction to women only became intense when her OCD flared up. • She said things like, “I feel peace when I believe I’m straight.” • She had already been diagnosed with OCD and had a history of this pattern. After years of fear and distress, Elle had a moment of calm and realized that it was true. I’m scared that this could happen to me too. Will I have a similar moment of acceptance, where everything clicks and I realize I’m gay? Or will I come to accept that this is all OCD, and that I’m straight, with the possibility that I’m not? I also keep thinking back to when my OCD lessened the first time. Did I go back to men because I wasn’t actually attracted to women, or was it just because the grip of the OCD had loosened? Elle also talked about the shame associated with non-heterosexuality. She mentioned that, like many of us, she had internalized stigma around being gay, and that it made her fear the possibility of being non-heterosexual. I can relate to this so much—growing up, I never saw it as an option to be anything other than straight, and now it’s hard to shake that fear and shame. Elle mentioned that she found reassurance in seeing other people with HOCD who worried that their fears would come true, but eventually realized they were just OCD thoughts. That idea is comforting, but also a little scary, because what if that moment of realization happens for me too? What if I finally accept that I am a lesbian? Or, what if I’m just struggling with OCD and eventually realize I’m straight? I just don’t know. The scariest part is that, just like Elle, I feel like I don’t have any obvious signs. She had no idea she was a lesbian until one day, everything clicked. She was 21, just like me when my OCD fears really flared up, and she had a breakthrough moment in Denver when she made friends with lesbians. That hasn’t happened for me yet, and it’s terrifying to think that it could happen in the future. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I’m really scared about where this will lead.
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I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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