I don’t understand why this feels so real. It just doesn’t feel like ocd anymore I feel calm and I keep getting these break up thoughts or I don’t love him thoughts. Like they’re still there and it just feels true even though I really don’t want it to be. I don’t want to lose him but even as I’m typing this that feels like a lie I don’t understand what’s going on

Relationship OCD

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cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

It’s like I can’t find my inner voice telling me it’s not real anymore. It’s so annoying

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain Thank you! I really don’t want to lose him and since it doesn’t “feel” like ocd anymore it’s been really worrying me lol

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain Yes it’s so weird! Sometimes it’s like it’s not thoughts it’s feelings. I feel overwhelmed while simultaneously being very calm

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain It’s just such a confusing spot to be in. I don’t really know how to accept uncertainty

Nikki1373748

Date posted: 4y

Omg I feel the same as u. I get anixety when I’m going to see him because I’m scared my thoughts will come but I can’t avoid to be with him because I 100% love him but today my thoughts told me “do I really love him” or “why is he different” then I felt bad the whole day with panic attacks.

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