Every time I worry about my hocd my first thought is “gay panic” like excuse me no it’s not gay panic >:(

You are worrying. You are also in school, right? School is stressful, maybe your OCD is taking that "off" stressed out feeling that you're feeling about school and projecting it onto your so-ocd? Youre probably thinking "oh I feel super off right now, so that MUST mean this." Because your theme is constantly on your mind, so your mind is trying to determine the root cause of it. When in reality, you might just be overworked, not eating or drinking enough, not having enough meaningful social interactions--and THAT is the root cause?:)