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Just take a deep breath and rethink it out loud . You got this
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Well maybe take a hot shower and take some deep breaths. I also get triggered real easy . By talking to you , you are also helping me . You got this madelyn .
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Really? I’m glad! And I’m just so scared of myself. I know I should give myself a break because I was and AM going through puberty. But I still feel like I’m a horrible person And rlly a p. :((
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You got through it than you can do it again. I'm here if u need to talk
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But I didn’t remember it then like I just remembered it now idk if it’s real or not and I’m freaking out. :(((
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I’m so scared 😭😭😭
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Can I help in anyway
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I’m not sure :(((
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I'm here if you need anything
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I’m also freaking out because I’m spiritual and I used a pendulum and asked it if I was that way and it said no a few times then I asked again and it stayed on the opposite of what it was saying now I’m scared. Even tho it said I’m not many times, the one time it was swinging towards the yes I am and I redid it after and it said no ur not again but I’m freaking out.
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I’m sorry if that was a lot and made no sense
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So just take a deep breath and dont listen to that and really think about it
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So let's try to make u feel better. What's your name if you dont mind me asking . You can get through this
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My name is Madelynn im 15 almost 16
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Hi madelyn my name is chris . So your also in junior high or high school which is stressful all on it's on. What puts you in a calming mood,
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I’ve never tried anything to calm me down. I feel like I don’t deserve this. I try to read the ocd book but it triggered me more. :(
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Yes you really are helping me and why do you think your a bad person , we all think this at one time or another remember you got this Madelyn .
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Well these thoughts would come in during Yk…sorry that’s tmi. And then I worry that what if when I was holding a kid I got a feeling down there? And I know even if I did, it doesn’t mean anything bc Yk. Puberty. But still. I’m so scared. And I get the feelings down there all the time. It’s horrible. :(
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That's just going through puberty and in some cases it can just be a thought u cant control or illness. You will learn how to handle it
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But what if I am a p? Am I? I’m scared. :((
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What's a p sorry
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A pedo :(( I would kill myself if I was
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Are u there? Do u think I’m that way??? :(((
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What does p stand for
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A pedophile I’m so scared I have pocd
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Hey babe I’m sorry you’re having a rough time I’m here if you need to talk privately or publicly I can give u my socials if you want to chat privately though :))
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Yes please :(( can we please talk privately?
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@Anonymous321 Ofc would u prefer snap or insta I have discord too
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@Anonymous321 You are definitely not
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@unknown Proabably snap thank you so much. My snap is madelynn.stark and I have a screentime so I won’t always respond but I’m able to for a little while soon :) <33
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@unknown Thank u sm I’ll add u back in one second I’m showering
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@Anonymous321 I hope she can help you. Remember you got this
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@christo789 Thank u <33
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That's just another trigger
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Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD
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How do you know the difference :( I genuinely cannot keep living in this torment. it all started with an ‘intrusive thought’ where I had like a hazy flash of something reading an article. and I remember thinking ‘what if’ and ‘what is this’ and then that intrusive thought turned into me ‘remembering’ something else. which caused me panic. then I started trying to find evidence because it contradicted what I remembered this entire time. this was last year in like september. fast forward to march this year, it came back up- but this time stronger and with more ‘details’ and what nots. and I’ve been ruminating on it since then trying to remember and connect and It’s like I’ve added all of these details. but are they real? or is this just my OCD? I just feel like if it were real I would have never been able to keep it to myself. but also what if it was so traumatic that I blocked it out? because it all makes NO sense for me to do something like that. but it also fits what I was thinking at the time. idk
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Hello 😭, so uhm I’m kind of in the point of my POCD where I’m just tired. I just need to get it all out and get some sort of instruction of how to just idk live? So for me my childhood is pretty blurry. I have a few real event blended with false memory events there but other than that I’m a csa victim. And the way I tried to cope? By fetishising nyself, making CP of myself, seeing my life goal as being used, raped and a prostitue. Self destructive behaviour through talking to pedophiles and seeing my only worth as if I was sexually attractive. Which made me kind of numb to CP as a coping mechanism I guess. And heres’s where my main event of REOCD/false memory ocd comes in. I have a few events in my life when I’ve accidentally stumbled across CP ish mangas or just plan abuse and not had a big reaction. Some of them I even liked the story. And my ocd LOVES playing with it, making me truly believe I enjoy and get of from CP. I’ve also had quite a few dreams. A few days ago I had a dream about me getting triggered by something I did in the dream. Which I now can’t figure out if it actually was a dream. But also moments overall where I’ve unintentionally touched my private part while my siblings are in the room or when I found a guy 2 years younger than me pretty in 4th grade. Or a few of my only friends who turned out to be younger than me, and I had talked about sexual things (like fan fictions, my trauma ect) with them. AHSHB I absolutely hate ruminating and I’m tired so so so so so so tried 😭 idk help me? Please TT
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