I suffer with health/somatic OCD. I also have a phobia of the doctor and meds. This makes checking my worries very complicated. My anxiety level is up high. I am starting work with an NOCD ERP therapist this month, even though I’ve been doing some ERP since June. Just 1 time a week, and not enough for the severity of my symptoms. I’m convinced I have every disease under the sun because my father had so many things wrong. My anxiety makes my body do crazy things, and I’m wondering if anyone can relate to this. Hoping my therapist can help me break the fear of the doc, testing and dealing with if something really is wrong. Feeling very alone..

vinjevollen

Date posted: 4y

Hey bud. This is me in a nutshell. In the past two weeks I’ve had a brain tumor, gastric cancer, leukemia, celiac disease, and multiple sclerosis. I perceive symptoms but because of the whole “uncertainty” bit, I become too afraid of what a doctor will tell me. I think this is one of the hardest subtypes of OCD because it’s difficult to know what’s real and what’s OCD. What I will say is that distraction/not engaging with those thoughts is super crucial. I find I fare better when I tell someone I am spiraling and we need to talk about something completely unrelated. Know you’re not alone ❤️ I am definitely right there with you

vinjevollen

Date posted: 4y

I’ve also been trying to tell myself that my body will tell me when something is wrong. My OCD doesn’t know shit. But the wires get crossed because anxiety causes physical symptoms…it’s all so confusing. But I know that we’ve got this, and we’ll overcome this. 🙏🏼

stronggirl

Date posted: 4y

I saw my uncle pass from ALS. A year later, I had muscle twitching and for the last 4 years, I have been thinking I have it and am going to die. Same leg pain. Same twitches. I made the mistake of googling symptoms when it fist happened. It pointed to ALS. Despite 5 neurologists and multiple tests saying things are healthy today, I cannot convince myself I am ok.

JROD

Date posted: 4y

It’s so confusing because my anxiety makes me shake, muscle twitches, all that fun stuff. Anxiety produces really bodily responses, so to not go all OCD about it is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever dealt with. I need to make my avatar a female, because I’m a girl, lol!

vinjevollen

Date posted: 4y

LOL oops. Anyway I understand what you’re saying, I have the same issues. The worst thing we can do for ourselves is hop on Google and try to figure it out though – the important thing to remember is that those Google searches lack context. We don’t know the nuances of medicine. We just simply make everything the worst-case scenario. I watched a video about how the nervous system plays a role in chronic pain (and by proxy, other fun symptoms). It helped me understand the mechanism of it, and what to do to calm down. Here’s a link: https://youtu.be/QFn_z_1lMWU Hopefully this helps you understand what the body does to us under stress. I’ve been diagnosed with IBS and fibromyalgia BECAUSE I live in a constant state of stress. Not the other way around. That channel also has another video talking about how to calm your nervous system with special techniques that I have found to be somewhat helpful. I hope it helps you too ❤️

JROD

Date posted: 4y

Thank you. I also have the IBS and other crazy stuff. I thank you for your support.

vinjevollen

Date posted: 4y

It’s crazy what stress does to us!

JROD

Date posted: 4y

I meant “real” bodily responses

JROD

Date posted: 4y

Anxiety does it all...

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