i understand what compulsions are but i cannot figure out what MY compulsions are. when i have there thought i dont know what happens in my brain that would be considered a compulsion. i know my physical compulsions when i have them, but ive had ocd since i was 5 and i just realized at 20 years old that i have ocd so ive just been living this way my whole life and i cant understand what thoughts i have control of and what i dont. :•\ im hoping to get therapy soon but its been very difficult to get there