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I truly feel you with this one. Something I did when I was quite young haunts me to this day and it kickstarted my pocd and worsened my other types of ocd. Although I rationally feel like I have moved past the terrible guilt, my mind still cannot let go all these years later. I know it is hard but hang in there and know that you are not alone. After feeling overwhelming guilt, I tried to read stories of people who forgave themselves for past mistakes and I was surprised how many of them deeply regret something they did as children and how it is eating them up. Your brain was not yet fully developed and you had yet to figure out what right and wrong was in some respects, this doesnt make you disgusting and there will be so many chances to do good in the future. Good luck :)
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Thank you it actually made me feel better, I know I'm a good person and when you're a child you do some stupid shit. I didn't know it's a bad thing to do back then and I wish I could go back, but that's life. I'm just scared that people would find me disgusting and weird. I feel like i have to tell someone what I did, I need someone's opinion... oh God.
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i get it… i did something when i was 19 that i regret quite a bit…. no one was hurt or anything but it’s not something i should have done. i don’t let it reflect who i am as a person but it definitely contributes to me thinking i’m awful. i regret it and would never allow it to happen again but it still happened and that sucks. so i get it. and it was only a year ago… ahhhh i hate myself. but i’m trying to move on. my biggest issue now is fearing i ACTUALLY am attracted to little girls. that sucks so much… i wish this never happened….
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Thanks for sharing... I support you and I'll try to calm down a bit I feel like what I did is a big deal and so so bad but also some of me thinks that it's nothing serious seens no one knows and I didn't hurt anyone I hate to feel like that and I hope you'll get through it too
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We can talk if u would luke. I have the same thing from when I could’ve been either 12,13,14,or 15.
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It would be nice, but I hope you won't get disgusted
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@bluesapphire I won’t! Here’s my snap- madelynn.stark
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@Anonymous321 Oh I don't have a snap :^( insta?
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@bluesapphire I don’t have one :( what about numbers?
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@bluesapphire I got an insta if u want it
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I think I know what honestly is what caused my OCD. I’ve never told anyone this but I have to if I want help. When I was either 10 or 11, I think 10 I was at my family’s thanksgiving dinner. Around this time I discovered porn and got addicted. I would watch porn and read erotica. Because of this I guess I wanted to experiment. I feel absolutely horrible just thinking about this but I was playing around with my little cousin, he was around 7 I think and I remember we were playing chase or hide and seek, and I grabbed him and hugged him (something I never done before), and got a boner. I did this for pleasure. That’s all I did that was sexual but I feel so horrible. I try to give myself grace as I was only 10 and didn’t know the consequences of something so disgusting. I keep thinking “what if I went farther and hurt him?”. I talk to him sometimes and he seems comfortable with me and I think he doesn’t even remember this ever happened and just thought I hugged him for some reason all those years ago. I am NOT attracted to him at all but I think this incident and remembering it when I was 14 has caused my OCD such as POCD for all these years. I am 18 now but I feel absolutely horrible. And now it’s even worse because I have been invited to his 15th birthday party in Mexico. I’m traveling all the way to another country just to be near him! Obviously I know I won’t touch him or be innopropriate with him. But what if he has felt uncomfortable with me all this time? He seems fine with me and not uncomfortable around me but still. If I feel as if I go to this trip, I am a horrible person. I don’t know what to do. Am I a horrible person for what I did and continuing to be around him? I remember reading Reddit and Quora stories of similar people who felt horrible and people told them to not feel bad as they were only children and they learned and now know that was wrong and that to not tell anyone as it could only make things extremely awkward.Please help. I know COCSA is a very serious topic that harms people and I feel like a horrible perpetrator now.
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when I was 15 soon to turn 16, I met this girl in a IG group chat made by our mutual friends. We started talking and eventually we started flirting and talking sexual towards each other, though eventually we stopped talking because she was being really weird. A couple months later In July of 2024 my friend found out that she was actually 13 and that she lied to me about her age. It's been 10 months since l've found out and I still feel so disgusted in myself. I had my suspicions at the time but I let them go since she said she was 16 turning 17. I was completely oblivious trusting someone I only knew online especially since i've never seen their face either. i'm struggling on what to do since i've been suffering with POCD since I was 15. Till this day I still feel weird and disgusted in myself because of that. But it feels ironic since i'm sexualizing someone that's 2 years younger than me and I waited to confirm she was around my age range to sexualize her. I feel so weird and guilty about it idk what to do
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