I did something specific when I was 13-14 that I found now really really disgusting (I'm almost 18 now), I feel so ashamed about myself. (i didn't hurt anyone, it's just really not something you should do) i can't get it out of my head I really wanna tell someone but I'm afraid people will think I'm weird and disgusting I feel so guilty, I don't know what to do... I wanna feel normal. This memory triggers my thoughts about children a lot because I feel like a perv (again, didn't hurt any child it's just really weird) Help Lol

I am 20. Around a month ago, I suddenly remembered something very bad I did when I was ten. At the time (when I was ten), I didn’t think twice about it, but ever since I remembered it, I can’t stop thinking and obsessing over it as I do not understand how I could have ever done something so bad. It really bothers me, and now I am contemplating wether or not I am a bad person. I have read many articles about this, scanned them, looked for people who have done similar things. According to them, I have past event ocd. I can understand that, but I consider what I did too bad for it to be that. Here’s what I remember of it: When I was 10, my sister was 7, and around that age we would often just walk around naked, wrestle, and etc just like kids. This is probably why I didn’t think twice about what I did. At that time, I would hump various things, not knowing what it meant. I can faintly recollect humping my sister. I do not understand why I did it, but it bothers me a lot and makes me wonder if I am a bad person. I realise it’s horrible, but I didn’t know what I was doing at the time.

is someone threw the same thing as me ? i feel so bad about things i’ve done while i was a pre/early teen, as sexual experimentation. It was Gross things that i’ll never do it again, i’m disgusted by it now. But i have so much guilt on me, i feel like i don’t deserve happiness after that. I know i was young and discovering sexuality but it don’t gives me enough relief. Thank guys, tell me how you feel about this.

I regret some of the illegal things that I saw online when I first got my phone when I was 13. I have a vague memory of seeing something horrific in a Kik group chat, it was cp. even just typing it out absolutely disgusts me. Although I was just a child myself I feel so awful about seeing it, at the time I didn’t even understand what I was watching. Many years later my mind is now twisting what happened telling me things like I’m a pedo and that I liked it..that I’m sick and should have known what I was watching and closed the app. I don’t remember how old the girl even looked but I think she was probably my age or abouts, that’s what confused me. I regret seeing it I want to rip my eyes out of my head. This is really difficult to open up about so please be considerate I don’t know how to begin to forgive myself and move on, or even if I should forgive my younger self makes me feel like I deserve to die