I did something specific when I was 13-14 that I found now really really disgusting (I'm almost 18 now), I feel so ashamed about myself. (i didn't hurt anyone, it's just really not something you should do) i can't get it out of my head I really wanna tell someone but I'm afraid people will think I'm weird and disgusting I feel so guilty, I don't know what to do... I wanna feel normal. This memory triggers my thoughts about children a lot because I feel like a perv (again, didn't hurt any child it's just really weird) Help Lol

I truly feel you with this one. Something I did when I was quite young haunts me to this day and it kickstarted my pocd and worsened my other types of ocd. Although I rationally feel like I have moved past the terrible guilt, my mind still cannot let go all these years later. I know it is hard but hang in there and know that you are not alone. After feeling overwhelming guilt, I tried to read stories of people who forgave themselves for past mistakes and I was surprised how many of them deeply regret something they did as children and how it is eating them up. Your brain was not yet fully developed and you had yet to figure out what right and wrong was in some respects, this doesnt make you disgusting and there will be so many chances to do good in the future. Good luck :)

i get it… i did something when i was 19 that i regret quite a bit…. no one was hurt or anything but it’s not something i should have done. i don’t let it reflect who i am as a person but it definitely contributes to me thinking i’m awful. i regret it and would never allow it to happen again but it still happened and that sucks. so i get it. and it was only a year ago… ahhhh i hate myself. but i’m trying to move on. my biggest issue now is fearing i ACTUALLY am attracted to little girls. that sucks so much… i wish this never happened….

We can talk if u would luke. I have the same thing from when I could’ve been either 12,13,14,or 15.