- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Same, I wish I could have a different theme than pocd because the guilt and shame that comes with it is so unbearable and like you said I don’t feel hopeful for my future as well and genuinely can’t enjoy anything or feel happy most of the time because there’s always that guilt and that background voice telling me I’m a bad person. I’ve tried to give myself other themes because I’m so tired of this one
I have the same thing as u. We can talk if u need or ever need <33
I appreciate it, OCD is a very lonely disorder. Sometimes I forget that there are other people out there who are also experiencing the same feelings I am as well.
I feel the same it’s so sad. I wish it never happened:(
I feel you .. I have had most of them and that one with false memory hurt you to the core! If only we knew to disregard when we were young.. This is off subject but did y’all experience strep throat growing up have y’all heard of pandas and it ties to ocd?
Hey listen, I have obsessions that I am a cheater which involves things such as scrupulosity and false memory. Literally every single day I think I have to worst theme in the world and no one is struggling harder than me. I often wish I had POCD or something instead, anything else. But it’s really all the same.
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I hear you and understand you. I am sorry you deal with this. However, pocd comes with struggles of thinking we are PEdophiles, rather than just cheaters. Every single day, at 15 years old, I would sit in my room and cry for hours with a pit it my stomach, almost throwing up at the sight of myself in the mirror thinking I was a pedophile.
@Anonymous321 I think there can deffinitely be nuances to every subtype, but I think deep down we are all the same, dealing with the same struggles. I have felt that same way. I have been suicidal because of these thoughts and had to go to the ER. I think it’s just about what matters to us most.
I’m right there with y’all I had a false memory episode in real time .. it’s been horrific but doing my best with erp.
i feel the same way! just different themes :((
it can seem hopeless, but NO themes are good,
when i was going through ROCD, i hoped for Harm OCD to come back. be careful what you wish for with OCD! that’s like asking for a bully to bully you. they are waiting for you to ask!
@i_will_beat_this i completely understand, with Harm OCD, it targets my family and random people. ROCD, my boyfriend. i’m soooo sorry. no theme is good i promise. your feelings are so valid! OCD takes so much away from us it’s terrible.
My pocd makes me feel really lonely. I have friends who I love but they also struggle with mental health too, and when I'm there to listen and support them sometimes it's just too much and I feel like a bad friend. I can't help but feel like it's not the same, I know you can't compare your struggles to others but sometimes when my friend is telling me how they feel a lack of motivation and depressed I honestly wish I was just dealing with that instead of that and fearing that I'm a pedophile ontop of it. Like at least the thing you're dealing with isn't something that will make 90% of the population despise you, you know? I know that sounds bad and isn't very mature but I'm always the therapist friend for other people, and I'm the only one actually seeking help and trying to get better and I arguably have the worst thing to deal with. I feel like my friends only want to talk to me when they're depressed or need advice and I'm so tired of it.
Never feels like I can fully put my mind to rest. The problem with OCD for me is once I'm over one worry there's another buried deep into my mind that I'm not fully over. The two events I'm not completely over is when I tried to help a 17 year old with POCD when I was 19 and the topics unfortunately were detailed and even then I explained to them I wasn't comfortable with talking to them. I guess I just had a hard time saying no to someone needing help but it eventually made me so uncomfortable that I stopped talking with them altogether at some point. Then the other thing is being so worried that I committed a crime because my elbow touched someone's behind when I didn't want that to happen at all. I didn't want to listen to my OCD by saying move my arm or something horrible is going to happen so I didn't and then something bad actually did happen. I thought it would just be a light touch while zipping a bag up but then it was worse than I ever wanted it to be and it was so awkward and I hated it. I feel like I just won't be able to get back to the way I was before OCD started all of this. Aside from that I've just had extreme health anxiety but am too afraid to reach out to a PCP even though I need to. Something deep down is telling me I should do this but I'm just so anxious and embarrassed about sharing things to them. I can't even enjoy the things I used to do because this is constantly just messing up my life. I'm hoping I get a start of positivity next time I see my therapist. This just sucks. Feels like others around me are doing so much better than I am and I'm just kind of stuck on these same problems and feeling absolute shame and guilt from the past over and over again. I'm just so sick of dealing with this every single day so I just use escape whenever I can. Even that doesn't really work. I just wish I could go back in time.
Im tired of knowing that people have blocked me on NOCD for my pocd / real events ocd posts... Im tired of knowing that I have real events that are POCD related... Im tired of getting intrusive thoughts and false memories of the worst case scenario for my pocd and real events ocd being true... Im so tired of it all...
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