- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Same, I wish I could have a different theme than pocd because the guilt and shame that comes with it is so unbearable and like you said I don’t feel hopeful for my future as well and genuinely can’t enjoy anything or feel happy most of the time because there’s always that guilt and that background voice telling me I’m a bad person. I’ve tried to give myself other themes because I’m so tired of this one
I have the same thing as u. We can talk if u need or ever need <33
I appreciate it, OCD is a very lonely disorder. Sometimes I forget that there are other people out there who are also experiencing the same feelings I am as well.
I feel the same it’s so sad. I wish it never happened:(
I feel you .. I have had most of them and that one with false memory hurt you to the core! If only we knew to disregard when we were young.. This is off subject but did y’all experience strep throat growing up have y’all heard of pandas and it ties to ocd?
Hey listen, I have obsessions that I am a cheater which involves things such as scrupulosity and false memory. Literally every single day I think I have to worst theme in the world and no one is struggling harder than me. I often wish I had POCD or something instead, anything else. But it’s really all the same.
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I hear you and understand you. I am sorry you deal with this. However, pocd comes with struggles of thinking we are PEdophiles, rather than just cheaters. Every single day, at 15 years old, I would sit in my room and cry for hours with a pit it my stomach, almost throwing up at the sight of myself in the mirror thinking I was a pedophile.
@Anonymous321 I think there can deffinitely be nuances to every subtype, but I think deep down we are all the same, dealing with the same struggles. I have felt that same way. I have been suicidal because of these thoughts and had to go to the ER. I think it’s just about what matters to us most.
I’m right there with y’all I had a false memory episode in real time .. it’s been horrific but doing my best with erp.
i feel the same way! just different themes :((
it can seem hopeless, but NO themes are good,
when i was going through ROCD, i hoped for Harm OCD to come back. be careful what you wish for with OCD! that’s like asking for a bully to bully you. they are waiting for you to ask!
@i_will_beat_this i completely understand, with Harm OCD, it targets my family and random people. ROCD, my boyfriend. i’m soooo sorry. no theme is good i promise. your feelings are so valid! OCD takes so much away from us it’s terrible.
Im tired of knowing that people have blocked me on NOCD for my pocd / real events ocd posts... Im tired of knowing that I have real events that are POCD related... Im tired of getting intrusive thoughts and false memories of the worst case scenario for my pocd and real events ocd being true... Im so tired of it all...
I got pure o. I don't think that's really the correct term but you get what i'm talking about. I would say that i have it because my ocd just picks and chooses what subtype it wants to bother with me today. Right now, i'm suffering with real event ocd and, hopefully, false memories. But i think i might have cracked the code on it. So my real events and false memories are pretty much private related, which makes it worse because there's no evidence or proof. There are some memories (real events) i can think about and accept that they happened. I still feel guilt and shame but i have closure from it. And there's the other memories (hopefully false memories) that i look at and just cannot wrap my head around. They feel so real like they actually happened and it gives me so much stress, but i sit there and think and think and think on it to see if it actually happened. Btw, these false memories come from my real events but in different situations and times. Like if it was true, i would accept it. Whether or not it made me feel guilt or shame, i would still accept it happened. This is what i think i figured out. I can look at a memory and know for certain it happened. I don't need evidence or nothing. The false memories make me question myself if it did happen. It's still very vivid and looks so real like a real memory, but i just can't be for certain if i did that. It makes me feel like i'm in denial of my past. Sometimes they both work together. A real event can happen but false memories can use its work to detail out the event, tryna make it much worse than it was. Or you can be thinking of a false memory but real events can try linking with that false memory to making you think you did do that. If this makes any sense or if what i’m saying is correct or i’m just crazy, please tell me. All advice is welcome. Thank you
Does anyone else struggle with this? I am constantly feeling jealous of all of my friends and wishing I could just be them because I know they don’t struggle with this and my obsession. I am even jealous of others with ocd, for example when I’m on here reading posts, I think to myself “I would rather have anyone else’s obsessions because it would be better than what I have and I’d be happy”. I know it’s not true at all because every time my obsession changes it feels just as bad as the last. But it is always in my mind it’s exhausting.
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