Sometimes I feel really bad for being jealous of others who have OCD as well. I think my subtypes just make my life really hard and I wish I could have a different type/types. I know regardless of the type OCD is still hard and everyone still tends to struggle in the same exact ways, but I don’t feel quite hopeful for my future here with pocd/real event ocd/pure ocd/and false memory ocd. It’s a quadruple whammy I have going here.

random_person

Date posted: 4y

Same, I wish I could have a different theme than pocd because the guilt and shame that comes with it is so unbearable and like you said I don’t feel hopeful for my future as well and genuinely can’t enjoy anything or feel happy most of the time because there’s always that guilt and that background voice telling me I’m a bad person. I’ve tried to give myself other themes because I’m so tired of this one

Anonymous321

Date posted: 4y

I have the same thing as u. We can talk if u need or ever need <33

lilfroggy

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

I appreciate it, OCD is a very lonely disorder. Sometimes I forget that there are other people out there who are also experiencing the same feelings I am as well.

Anonymous:,(

Date posted: 4y

I feel the same it’s so sad. I wish it never happened:(

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I feel you .. I have had most of them and that one with false memory hurt you to the core! If only we knew to disregard when we were young.. This is off subject but did y’all experience strep throat growing up have y’all heard of pandas and it ties to ocd?

Maybe,MaybeNot

Date posted: 4y

Hey listen, I have obsessions that I am a cheater which involves things such as scrupulosity and false memory. Literally every single day I think I have to worst theme in the world and no one is struggling harder than me. I often wish I had POCD or something instead, anything else. But it’s really all the same.

bellag

Date posted: 4y

Anonymous321

Date posted: 4y

I hear you and understand you. I am sorry you deal with this. However, pocd comes with struggles of thinking we are PEdophiles, rather than just cheaters. Every single day, at 15 years old, I would sit in my room and cry for hours with a pit it my stomach, almost throwing up at the sight of myself in the mirror thinking I was a pedophile.

Maybe,MaybeNot

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous321 I think there can deffinitely be nuances to every subtype, but I think deep down we are all the same, dealing with the same struggles. I have felt that same way. I have been suicidal because of these thoughts and had to go to the ER. I think it’s just about what matters to us most.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I’m right there with y’all I had a false memory episode in real time .. it’s been horrific but doing my best with erp.

bellag

Date posted: 4y

i feel the same way! just different themes :((

bellag

Date posted: 4y

it can seem hopeless, but NO themes are good,

bellag

Date posted: 4y

when i was going through ROCD, i hoped for Harm OCD to come back. be careful what you wish for with OCD! that’s like asking for a bully to bully you. they are waiting for you to ask!

bellag

Date posted: 4y

@i_will_beat_this i completely understand, with Harm OCD, it targets my family and random people. ROCD, my boyfriend. i’m soooo sorry. no theme is good i promise. your feelings are so valid! OCD takes so much away from us it’s terrible.

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