TW i feel so guilty over the way i used to take care of my sister. ever since i was a child, my parents made her my responsibility while they were away or at work. they told her i was her other parent while they were gone. my father encouraged me to spank her if things got out of hand. and i feel so guilty that i did. i dont do that anymore bc ik better than i do now and i don’t believe in spanking children at all. I apologized to her and asked her if i spanked her a lot (bc i got scared that i did but i don’t remember) and she said i did but it was very rare. i feel so awful and i wish i didn’t now im ruminating and checking any past events to see if i was a violent person to her and if i need to go to jail