Why do people never talk about what it's like to be bisexual with soocd? The lack of representation among ocd circles makes it feel even more like my situation is the exception.

Welcome to the club lol

I’m bi with SOOCD. For years I struggled with HOCD and deathly afraid I was gay. Then I came out as gay even tho I knew it wasn’t a good fit. I thought switching it up would stop the sex themed intrusive thoughts. Lol nope it just pivoted. So now I choose to be bi and I’m so comfortable with myself on one hands, and on the other I wildly oscillate between no your gay no your straight, gaslighting myself the entire time. It’s whack.

I feel for you. It's so rough. I have been identifying as bisexual since years before I developed soocd theme. I confidently identified as bi when I met my boyfriend and the soocd didn't start until a couple years into our relationship. It latched onto the fear that I don't like men at all and am just a lesbian. So I relate to your struggle. I'm sorry we both go through this

gahhh so frustrating! i have similar thoughts /:

ahaha same (: i actually got frustrated enough one night that i googled it & got results back abt “bi-cycle” how punny. it’s basically in reference to this constant cycle of knowing i’m bi, then doubting myself & thinking i’m gay, then doubting myself again & thinking i’m straight, & just perpetually moving through life in this cycle hahaha

I used to be on reddit constantly reading stuff about bi cycles and preferences etc.! Before I realized I was compulsively doing so. But knowing about it in general, that preferences shift and change for bi people helped me to normalize the complexity of being bisexual. However, doesn't make it any less scary when you have soocd... 😅🤣

@Whatabtme yessss haha reddit is a rabbit hole that i need to stop falling down 😬 i totally agree with the fluidity of being bi, i think it’s just one of those things that i know logically, but irrational thoughts make their way into my head anyway

@Whatabtme Tbh I had no idea other ppl struggled with this until like a week ago. It feels so good to know I’m not alone

@bellennia Sameeee and ocd especially backdoor spikes can make it feel so real, the loss of attraction sensation, just makes it like a mindfuck

i struggle with this as well. am i faking it? i must be straight. no, i actually am not into guys, so i am definitely gay. but i have feelings for both… and then it’s this whirlwind in my mind 😂 a little off topic but in terms of OCD and ruminating not only do my intrusive thoughts consist of questioning my identity, but also question my validity of being mentally ill. borderline especially. it’s funny how our brains work. ocd is like a little gremlin living in there causing chaos

I identify as straight with so-ocd. Its hard enough for me...but I can't imagine how confusing this must be for y'all to have to basically go through three different things here. I hope you guys are doing your ERP and taking care of yourselves 💛