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I’m bi with SOOCD. For years I struggled with HOCD and deathly afraid I was gay. Then I came out as gay even tho I knew it wasn’t a good fit. I thought switching it up would stop the sex themed intrusive thoughts. Lol nope it just pivoted. So now I choose to be bi and I’m so comfortable with myself on one hands, and on the other I wildly oscillate between no your gay no your straight, gaslighting myself the entire time. It’s whack.
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I feel for you. It's so rough. I have been identifying as bisexual since years before I developed soocd theme. I confidently identified as bi when I met my boyfriend and the soocd didn't start until a couple years into our relationship. It latched onto the fear that I don't like men at all and am just a lesbian. So I relate to your struggle. I'm sorry we both go through this
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gahhh so frustrating! i have similar thoughts /:
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ahaha same (: i actually got frustrated enough one night that i googled it & got results back abt “bi-cycle” how punny. it’s basically in reference to this constant cycle of knowing i’m bi, then doubting myself & thinking i’m gay, then doubting myself again & thinking i’m straight, & just perpetually moving through life in this cycle hahaha
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I used to be on reddit constantly reading stuff about bi cycles and preferences etc.! Before I realized I was compulsively doing so. But knowing about it in general, that preferences shift and change for bi people helped me to normalize the complexity of being bisexual. However, doesn't make it any less scary when you have soocd... 😅🤣
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@Whatabtme yessss haha reddit is a rabbit hole that i need to stop falling down 😬 i totally agree with the fluidity of being bi, i think it’s just one of those things that i know logically, but irrational thoughts make their way into my head anyway
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@Whatabtme Tbh I had no idea other ppl struggled with this until like a week ago. It feels so good to know I’m not alone
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@bellennia Sameeee and ocd especially backdoor spikes can make it feel so real, the loss of attraction sensation, just makes it like a mindfuck
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i struggle with this as well. am i faking it? i must be straight. no, i actually am not into guys, so i am definitely gay. but i have feelings for both… and then it’s this whirlwind in my mind 😂 a little off topic but in terms of OCD and ruminating not only do my intrusive thoughts consist of questioning my identity, but also question my validity of being mentally ill. borderline especially. it’s funny how our brains work. ocd is like a little gremlin living in there causing chaos
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I identify as straight with so-ocd. Its hard enough for me...but I can't imagine how confusing this must be for y'all to have to basically go through three different things here. I hope you guys are doing your ERP and taking care of yourselves 💛
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Welcome to the club lol
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Hahah I love that image My therapist always emphasis that sexuality can be fluid and change. Which is true. But this isn’t the lazy river it’s the wave pool lol
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I wouldn’t really say I have SO-OCD, but it manifests in some areas of my TOCD. Like if I see a woman for example my thoughts will go “what if I like her but as a man?” like my thoughts say I’m a straight man instead of a straight woman. And it’s really bothering me. If I see an attractive woman my brain will re-wire and imagine myself as a man looking at an attraction woman and it gets super uncomfortable that I have to like shake my head and say “no no no no no” multiple times to get the thought out. I know that counts as a compulsion but it’s hard to not do it because it’s so triggering. Now I don’t mind if I like women, however I’m really scared that I’m actually a straight man who likes women (or at least a bisexual man, considering I like men) and I hate it because I don’t want to be a man. Like I’ll think of my desired relationship as a woman dating a man but my OCD will switch it up to me being the man dating the woman, which is the opposite of what I want. I don’t want to be a man at all and I don’t want to date a woman, both of those are the opposite of my desires, but I’m still so scared. I’ll accept myself if I actually like women and am a bisexual woman, however I heard that being bisexual can mean being trans which scares me (for the record it was said in reddit by a sub which is mainly focused on a pseudoscientific phenomenon, that is still believed by the members to be true, so it’s definitely not a trustworthy statement, but my OCD will use anything to work against me) Does anyone here relate a little? 🥲
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Hello everyone, I just wanted to share a part of my journey that I’m struggling with right now. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd and while this is not my first subtype, ROCD and so ocd have definitely been the ones I’ve been struggling with the most. For context I have a boyfriend who I love very much and am terrified of loosing. That’s probably what ocd latched onto. The so-ocd especially is tricky because I’ve come to acknowledge that I am bisexual. Don’t worry I didn’t “discover” this through ocd, I’ve always known and it’s been in the back of my mind way before ocd, I had just never really directly acknowledged it because romantically I just always leaned towards men. The thing my ocd latched onto is “what if you are actually a lesbian and don’t know it yet and will have to leave your partner or are lying to your partner or end up leading him on” The thing is, I don’t have much experience with women except kissing my female best friend once, which didn’t feel special or made me have romantic feelings for her. I’ve always seeked men more actively than women and didn’t feel like I was gonna miss out if I get into a serious relationship with a man before having had more experience. I just know that I can be sexually attracted to women as well. But now that I’m in this beautiful relationship I’m terrified of getting it wrong or having missed something about myself or being scared that I’m actually a lesbian and have been lying to myself all along. I’m not seeking reassurance, just wanting to share and maybe someone else is going through something similar? If so I’d be so grateful to know I’m not alone. I love my boyfriend dearly and i really hope we will work out in the long run.
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People with soocd don’t really talk enough about how it makes us forget that even if it were true logically we wouldn’t lose attraction but gain another 😂😂when soocd isn’t hitting my brain actually brains and go like if my ocd was right I could still marry a man as I have always wanted because I would then be bi not gay. Soocd makes us throw our brain out the moment it grips us. I hope your soocd gets better
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