I’m afraid about going to therapy despite I can’t.. If the therapist say i have ocd then I would be really sad.. If the therapist says I don’t have ocd then I’m gonna be crazy because what are these thoughts if I don’t havr ocd If I won’t gi then I’m gonna live with uncertainty and doubt wich make me tired…

You should go. If you are diagnosed with OCD then you will be able to get the help that you need to reduce the thoughts. Therapy is there to help you.

I had one therapist tell me it was GAD and another say it was OCD and I’m still doubting its either lol it’s tough and I feel for you. Trying to figure out if it is or isn’t ocd is exhausting. But now that we’re talking about it, my therapist says figuring it out IS ocd itself. Makes sense. And that the most important thing here is to learn how to stop ruminating. To broaden the gap between thought and action, and to then make a decision to not ruminate.

You should still go, therapy is meant to help you and you can change your therapist and decide what you should tell them and what you shouldn’t. You might not immediately get diagnosed, it took awhile for my therapist and I to see if I had OCD. At first we thought it was just a form of extreme anxiety disorder but as it worse over a couple months that when we realized it was OCD and I was able to get the right care I needed to treat my disorder. Therapy does help, trust me 😊

I agree with everyone else. You should go to therapy. I suggest getting a therapist through NOCD. Its perfectly normal to have mixed feelings when I got diagnosed. I felt relieved, sad, angry, and disappointed. I'm not going to lie to you ERP is crazy hard and uncomfortable. I've only done ERP a couple times. But I have already noticed a big difference. You don't have to keep letting OCD win. OCD recovery IS possible. You just have to work for it and trust the process