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Exactly. You know I have been listening to an audiobook on audible that has helped me out a bit. It's called, "Overcoming Harm OCD" by John Hershfield. Maybe give that a try.
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Thanks 👍🏻
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I exactly feel the same thing sometimes. Bro trust me you are not a murderer nor you will. When these thoughts come just agree with them and tell yourself I will wait this year.
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Hi thanks Michael I get times like this where I’m calm I go I never will it’s obvious but then when I say that I start to feel doubt coming on and I’m not sure I’m just so confused as I’m sorta having an identity crisis through this as I’m a 19 year old so most do. It just feels so so so real and I’m just freaking out and beg do normal. I just gotta disregard and move on
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@CJocd I can agree with this to If you are getting scared and anxious it's actually good as you don't want to do that but your mind is saying you to do that which is making you scared. Just don't do any compulsions let the thoughts resist and they will fade away on its own and you will be back to normal. Sometimes I get intrusive thoughts like you get. Half time I feel anxious and half time I don't. Just rekax you will be all good :)
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Michael, It is OCD. I have all these same feelings but for sucide instead of murder. I worry that my Harm OCD has escalated to a point that I actually WANT to die. Instead of being just afraid of killing myself. "What if I got misdiagnosed? What if I don't actually have OCD? What if I have suicidal depression? What if I'm homicidal?" Sometimes it feels like an inevitability. It is not. We are in control. The OCD can only taunt and suggest. Never force.
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See you are questioning your self. If you have this, if you have that which means you have OCD. And whenever you think you want to commit suicide. Just remember you only live once and life is a gift. Live it peacefully that's it.
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Thanks Adam and Michael, yeh it’s just so real and feels so bloody real my fear is not that I woll like wit everything it’s so I want to so I try chasing the feeling that I don’t want to and it only makes it worse and worse till I’m not sure. It’s just scary and I gotta keep challenging the thoughts it’s just the feelings there the toughest hurdle to get through :) I appreciate these so much thabkyou for the help
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@CJocd No problem Let's fight together and win together Stay strong 💪🏻:)
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The "Want" is very confusing. But I promise you, you got this.
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Like it’s hard to describe I get yeh I saw a good refrences something u truely want is easy going like ice cream I feel like I want ice cream that dosent cause me to freak out and analyse I get the ice cream and I don’t think about it again. I feel like I want to do horrible things is different I freak out I analyse and I beat up that feeling till it goes away but only to coke back stronger minutes later
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@CJocd Don't perform any compulsions. Just let it be in your mind
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i am convinced im a psycho killer. everytime im around my mom or sister i get these intense thoughts of stabbing or hurting them. when they’re not around its not as intense but its still there. its literally on my mind 24/7. im so tense 24/7. were currently looking for a puppy for the family and when me and my sister were playing with them today the thought was still there. nothing distracts me from it. video games and EVERYTHING else doesn’t work. im starting to feel like i WANT to do these things. i was never like this until i had a marijuana induced panic attack in january. i feel like something happened to my brain and its not just ocd anymore. i dont even know if im faking it. i have suffered from relationship ocd, pedophile ocd, and health ocd. i got over those relatively quickly. this new theme came out of nowhere after a panic attack on a plane coming home from a horror convention in february. i dont see a way out of this one. its been months. i try to let them sit and i get a panic attack. all i do everyday is cry. i feel like my life is over. i talk to a therapist and i have tried two medications that didnf work work. i dont know how to live like this. im afraid im gonna lose my relationship and im afraid im gonna lose my whole life ahead of me. im just 22. i just want the old me back.
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Hey guys. I feel like no one will even reply to my post. I feel anxious af. I could barley eat a plate of soup. I feel so drained and fatigued and feel the anxiety in my stomach. I'm just so worried I don't even have harm ocd anymore. Its just... I grew up in a household where swatting people was normalized like if you did something really naughty. I never really questioned it and I grew up thinking it was an okay thing and would sometimes swat someone when they are being naughty growing up and even recently. I would never swat someone at full force or enough to make someone cry just more like a hard tap to get their attention but it feels automatic? And even then it's really really rare for me to do, i much rather talk sternly or tell someone. When i do swat its bc like if someone scared me I guess I hit their hand and say "THAT SCARED ME" and we both start laughing or if my older niece was roughhousing with her younger sister and the younger one gets hurt and the older one laughs, I swat the older one once or twice on her arm as a discipline and say "what is wrong with you??? Why are you laughing? You are much older than her! You could've seriously hurt her." And idk how but i never thought like how wrong this is?!... and I feel like sh/t like ocd keeps saying "well you have swatting impulses when someone is misbehaving or if someone scares or hits you, meaning if you get an impulse to do something really evil instead, you wouldnt be able to control yourself huh?" And I started to get so anxious and scared. Ive NEVER acted out on the harm ocd thoughts (nor do i even want to) ive been getting daily for 4 years even when they are misbehaving. But i get so scared like WHAT IF I get an impulse to do the evil thoughts? What if I lose control?! Is this a history of violence/ low impulse?! Does this mean i would act out on my fears?! I've never wanted to do these thoughts before but i get scared like what if I do one day? This whole day ive been ruminating and asking ai for reassurance. I feel terrible. I feel like a horrible person. I started to cry. I just cant anymore. I feel this weight on my chest. I feel so evil so irredeemable. I f/cking suck. I hate myself so much right now. I feel so much guilt and shame. Why am I still here anymore? Maybe i dont even have ocd and maybe i never did. This is just breaking my heart. I want to change and unlearn this swatting behavior as well for sure. :(
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