Nikki1373748
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SunsetAquarius78SunsetAquari...
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Yuppppppp feel ya
Nikki1373748Nikki1373748
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What is your thoughts about?
SunsetAquarius78SunsetAquari...
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@Nicole1234 I’m constantly debating if this relationship is what I want. I’ve always been attracted to my boyfriend and looked forward to our future together. But now my ROCD makes me nervous and question everything how I feel for him and about him because I know I didn’t feel this way a few months ago and I know it’s possible for my feelings to switch up that fast
SunsetAquarius78SunsetAquari...
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@Anonymous And it makes me feel like I love my boyfriend for the wrong reasons
Nikki1373748Nikki1373748
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@Anonymous I really understand you. I really do. Its so hard to think that it is not real. Its like you get stuck to them. I dont know. Before my thoughts was like do i really love him and now i wonder maybe its real and that freaks me out. But at the same time i know that i really love him. Its so hard. Have you talked to your boyfriend?
Nikki1373748Nikki1373748
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@Anonymous What wrong reasons do u mean?
SunsetAquarius78SunsetAquari...
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@Nicole1234 Yeah my boyfriend and I are on a break actually due to my ROCD because it got to be too much because I confess and do a lot of compulsions that have affected him. So I’m getting therapy and trying to figure out my feelings.
SunsetAquarius78SunsetAquari...
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@Nicole1234 I just have thoughts as if am I with him because im comfortable, hes my best friend but is that all I see him as, that kind of stuff
Nikki1373748Nikki1373748
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@Anonymous Oh I understand. How does it feel for u to be on a break with him?
Nikki1373748Nikki1373748
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@Anonymous I understand. Its so hard.
SunsetAquarius78SunsetAquari...
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@Nicole1234 It relieved some stress honestly only because my ROCD made me feel guilty that I was having these bad thoughts about our relationship but then acting normal to him. Made me feel like I was cheating, not sure if that makes sense. I think things will work out between us but I needed to put myself first and try to gather my thoughts and not hurt someone along the process
SunsetAquarius78SunsetAquari...
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@Nicole1234 How are you and your boyfriend?
Nikki1373748Nikki1373748
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@Anonymous I understand. Me and my boyfriend was really close to break up yesterday. And i didnt wanna tell him about all my thoughts because i dont want to hurt him But now i have told all my thoughts and he is so supportive and I was scared that he was going to be angry at me or something. But now I’m scared that I don’t love him but when I’m with him I’m really happy and everything so I don’t know. I keep having these thoughts “is it real” or “how do I know”. It feels like if I break up with him I let my rocd win so I don’t know. When we was going to break up we both cried for so long. It’s hard to be with me with rocd but now he knows and I hope I get better. This happened to me before and it got better but it’s back and worse and it’s with the same guy.
SunsetAquarius78SunsetAquari...
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@Nicole1234 Well I’m happy you guys are making it through and I’m glad you told me last time it got better for you, that gives me some hope. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 7 years and the last 2 years have been rough so I think this on top of it is just a lot for both of us. I wish you both all the best!
Nikki1373748Nikki1373748
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@Anonymous Thank you. I hope everything gets better with your boyfriend and that you soon are feeling better. I believe in u :)
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