I want to share some hope with all of you experiencing ROCD. I have been through absolute HELL this year with ROCD. Honestly, it was been the most difficult year of my life. But after many months of hard work, ERP, trying to reprogram my ways of thinking, failing, trying again, taking two steps forward and one step back, starting medication, I am happy to say that I am feeling like my usual self and feeling so lucky to have my partner. There have been times when I was repulsed by him and that has been extremely hard on our relationship, but he has stuck by me and I am just so grateful for him and for myself for choosing not to trust the intrusive thoughts that plagued me for so long. I don't feel absolutely infatuated with him, but I have realised that feeling infatuated is not a good indication of love or of being a good fit. My partner is amazing and supportive and loving, and having those things helps so much to build love. It's hard to let go of wanting that feeling, I completely understand, but please know that even though you may not be feeling how you want to right now, that it is possible for that to change and that you can have a happy relationship. ROCD doesn't have to define you and you can do this. I did it and so can you XXX ❤️

Thank you so much for posting this. Rocd has been the hardest thing that I have ever gone through. And I do not wish it on anyone. It’s nice to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like most of the time when I go into the app it’s all about the negative effects that ocd has had and caused, so it’s nice to hear some positives and some hope. Right now I’m struggling with wanting that feeling, that feeling of love, and I know the more I look for it the more I push it away. Iv also realized that love isn’t a feeling, it is a choice but it’s so hard not to want it though. Do you have any advice?

I watched a video today learning about how love is a choice and it started my day off really good and I was happy. About an hour ago I expressed to my friend what I’ve been going through (explained ROCD) and the first thing they said was “are you sure it’s ocd it’s normal to not want to be in a long relationship anymore” and it literally made me think love being a choice is all a lie and what if it’s not even ROCD

This made me tear up. Thank you for writing this. ROCD has taken over my life and my relationship and truly all I want is my relationship to be back to normal and in this moment I was actually feeling really hopeless. Really happy I came across your post.

I was in that same situation. I also confided in a friend she told me “ people fall out of love, Mayb you fell out of love” and it sent me down a spiral. Even now it’s still a little scary. It’s hard to express to someone what you’re going through when they don’t know. But just knowing that I’m not going through this alone and that others are experiencing this is amazing. But that’s what ocd does, it makes you doubt the things you love the most, our relationship, ourselves anything that you care about. But I believe that we will make it out of here! Look at how much progress we have already made by just being here and reaching out for help. Be proud of your progress. Celebrate the little things. Life is too short.

Thank you so much for this!