Ihateocd83
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Day513Day513
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Please still date girls! Don’t let the thoughts win
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I don't intend to. But it my thoughts are telling me I like men's genitals aswel. But it always just upsets me 😞
BryanBryan
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I definitely can’t date or love on a man I am married tried acting on my HOCD when I was younger thinking I was gay and I am in fact straight I don’t even check out men, I do carry a shit ton of shame and guilt for trying something but I can’t change my past I would go back to before I got sick if I could change my past.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Yes mate ... we have spoke before. Its weird it just doesn't line up. I had my inkckling that's I was gonna end up thoughts like this as a boy or teenager and then suddenly in my 20s bam out of knowwhere and now it's on my mind constantly at the age of 38. FYI the penis thing only started about a year ago and wanting to be with a man. Could this just be severe ocd ....I'm not sure 😔
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Good and bad days to be honest. Me and my gf have split up but I'm OK about it. It's just this going on. I don't want to start dating again because I feel like I'm leading them on with this going on. But I still have the want for women. I don't want to give into this shit 😒
BryanBryan
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You and your GF broke up
BryanBryan
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Because of the OCD?
BryanBryan
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Are you on medication
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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It's Tommy...do you remember?
BryanBryan
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Yeah man how have you been
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Yeah if you can call it that. I really do doubt it. I've even tried accepting but I just can't I literally can't
BryanBryan
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Can’t accept what
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan I just don't know what to do mate
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Being gay or bi or whatever. I just don't want this in my life. I just don't see how I get back to myself I don't know where how this ends. And start dating again
Day513Day513
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You have to stop trying to figure it out. OCD won’t let you
BryanBryan
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@Day513 Exactly
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan What shall I do about dating girls I still have the want there. But I don't want to lead anyone on if it is true ?. My last relationship was toxic and I was emotionally abused by my ex I think this might have played a factor in this getting worse ?
Day513Day513
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@Ihateocd83 If you don’t date, you will let OCD win. You have to keep living your life like before
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Day513 Could a bad relationship have made my ocd worse ?. Some days I'm so close to just going fuck I must be gay. It makes no sense the way I used to feel about girls it's so upsetting 😞
BryanBryan
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@Day513 This is 100% true
BryanBryan
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@Ihateocd83 There are many things that can trigger OCD and your symptoms. There are both environmental factors and mental factors that are affecting your ability to cope. I suggest some trauma therapy if your OCD is that bad. Especially if you were in a toxic relationship
BryanBryan
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@Ihateocd83 I know spend a lot of time on this app ruminating looking for reassurance your not gay or whatever, you need to learn to live by your values and not your OCD. You need to spend time with your son or your kids you have values Tommy your OCD is violating your core values you are in fact straight.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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What is mate ?
BryanBryan
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What is what
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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What's 100% true ?
BryanBryan
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Are you attracted to men
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan Feels like it yes ...... when you say attracted what do you mean? Do I want to pursue men ?
BryanBryan
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@Ihateocd83 Yeah
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan How can I date women with this going on mate.... its not fair on the woman 😞
BryanBryan
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@Ihateocd83 I don’t know but what I do know is that me sitting on this app does not help anything it makes me worse
BryanBryan
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@Ihateocd83 This shit sucks
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan Yeah your right. I just don't trust my mind. I just don't want to feel like this anymore. I used to be so into women like probably to much like a dog on heat. And now I'm here it makes no sense 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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No I don't. But of course my mind tells me different 😔
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Questions… I don’t want reassurance just advice
I’ve tried accepting the uncertainty, I’ve accepted I may be gay, bi or still straight. I’ve tried doing ERP myself to the best I can. When I accept that I’m gay or bi why doesn’t my head agree and move on? Why does it still question it? I know I don’t want to be at all. I love my family. But I just want this to move on. I want to enjoy life. Why can’t I find women attractive again? (Brief moments I do). I seriously don’t understand the false attraction? I’ve tried agreeing with it but it won’t let this drop. Why am I attracted to the same sex? Why am I attracted to people I would never thought of looking at? Why does it give me such grief about this? I know I shouldn’t look at adult content but why can I only feel good watching either lesbian or females? I tried to agree with the gay but it makes me sick and horrendous I even considered this? I just want my life back.
anonymous00981
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Uncertainty sucks.
I’m trying to live with uncertainty but it doesn’t feel right. The “I may or may not be bi/gay” really sucks because I can’t stop ruminating, analyzing, or checking. This especially sucks because I feel like literally EVERYTHING in my life leads to the fact that I’m a fraud which feels horrible. I can’t even talk to my friends the way I used to without feeling like I’m lying about myself. The false attraction and loss of attraction to men is literally horrible because now I feel like the life i fantasized for myself isn’t something I want.
Lakeys.25
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- 19w
this feels like denial now 😭😭
im so scared that this is just denial and that im actuall gay. idk what to do anymore i need help. its just constant anxiety in my chest and i hate it. is there anything i can do to help?
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