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And played virtual online games to distract myself and joke around/mess with people
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From anxiety ^
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Take deep breaths. OCD makes us confused in the head, so your OCD is likely trying to make you believe you did something that you didn't.
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Hey so I completely understand this and I have this theme :(. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Reach out to me if you need anything, I’m open to talk if need be.
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I know a couple of things I did that were screwed up . I had a male online friend and lied he was gay because I was scared my bf would be mad (ex boyfriend trusma induced) and I would send him tik tok videos asking if I looked bad or fat . And one time I said my boobs looked good as an off hand comment. But my bf was fine with it , and forgave me . And wants me to keep talking to the guy because he would help with my anxiety and I had a friend to share things with (I don’t have many of those) how can I contact you btw through this ??
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@Emmy56777 Truama* my ex would scream at me if I said hey to another male
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I had this exact same theme for literally years. That is my original theme that got me diagnosed with OCD. I would also get time lines confused and confessed every single time. I remember trying to remember every single second of every single time I had ever been drunk and when I obviously couldn’t, then my brain would tell me I had suppressed a cheating memory. It was hell so I completely understand how you feel. My therapist here NOCD would assign me ERP homework every week. That includes watching clips of people cheating on each other and resisting the compulsions of rumination and reassurance. I would also write down my “memories” in great detail and read them multiple times a day until it became boring to my brain. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You can beat this.
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Thank you , I have chatted with a lot of people online and been in anxiety groups I’m scared I cheated there even tho I mentioned my bf over a thousend times . I joke sexually sometimes and get scared that’s cheating or try to give guys girl advice/help them etc etc . List goes on . And I’ve never been in a healthy relationship before so it’s hard to know what’s right . And I’m so scared of messing up none internationally . I haven’t left the house since last October . And it’s just been really hard .
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@Emmy56777 Your feeling are 100% valid. It’s scary to wonder if you’ve cheated. It’s a scary thought. But that’s all it is.. a THOUGHT. There’s no proof. Tell yourself that maybe you did cheat or maybe you didn’t. Try to sit in that anxiety without ruminating or trying to figure it out. What helped me was telling myself that if I did cheat then I’d take accountability and face the consequences when there is proof. It’s been over a year and still no proof. Check out Ali Greymond on YouTube. She’ll help you find a way out of this. “Ali Greymond cheating ocd” should be a good search. Best of luck my friend. You’re stronger than you think.
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I have false memory real event ocd, I’ve been married 13 years and I used to constantly bring up past mistakes from when we were dating and it RUINED our marriage, but I got medication and therapy and things got better untill a few weeks ago where everything crumbled. I have a memory that is 13 years ago of me being intimate with my husband (than boyfriend) while being intimate I have a memory of sending a text to a male who obviously liked me but I didi not while my husband was under the covers . And I keep thinking over and over how disgusting and inappropriate it was to do that especially doing it in the middle of being intimate 😞. I have confessed this to my husband last year and he didint believe me saying it’s probably a made up memory and would are not a slut and wouldn’t do that. Now i have guilt all over again for weeks and it’s taking such a toll on me it’s all I think about and try to remember every detail I’ve thought about it so much I don’t even know if it’s 100 percent true. But I can vividly see it when I close my eyes. How do I get over this guilt without confessing? Confessing would absolutely destroy my husband.
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So I have been struggling with the same theme of ocd for 4 months now. My ocd centers around past events/false memories that ocd skews to make seem bad or it twists my thoughts on what my intentions were. this is related to cheating or being weird while I have been in my amazing relationship. I have never cheated on my partner and never will and I believe it is wrong. But my ocd is telling me other wise. I love my partner so very much and I would never want to hurt him but my brain is getting to me. I was getting better. I was trying “maybe I did, maybe I didn’t”, I have been back on meds and in therapy and I stopped confessing random interactions from years/months ago about 1.5 weeks ago and it really helped. But now I woke up this morning and feel the pit in my stomach again. I feel extra critical and like why would you do this? What does this say about you? What was your intention with this? And I’m just stuck mentally reviewing and ruminating on everything you could imagine. I know my personality and I know in the moment maybe I did find them attractive but mainly I was just being nice or funny or even just a good friend, but looking back now I’m like “was it flirting?” “Why did I still snap this person” “why would I even talk to them” and stuff like that. I feel this intense sense of guilt. I have told my partner everything that I keep getting stuck on and he didn’t care, he said he understands or “that’s a little weird but it’s okay” and hasn’t missed a beat. He said eveything I’ve told him is normal and I’ve heard that from my friends too. I just really need help. I don’t know what to do anymore. I am so disappointed because I thought I was gonna be done with this, so why am I still so worried and caught up in this.
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since one of my biggest fears/events of my reocd happened (not the way i thought it would happen!) i've been healing and understanding a lot of things (like the fact i was the one being abused in my old relationship) but thanks to that my ocd has been trying to launch on a new event and i don't know. i was in a cut and off relationship with my ex three years ago, this happened when i was an older teenager and really confused. during the time i cut off momentary with him i started to get compliments and cute messages in an anonymous confession page and used to post them replying in a playful way or just with genuine curiousity. the thing is, i got with my ex once again in secret for the last time but honestly i'm realizing lately that i didn't love him anymore and being with him made me feel terrible but i wasn't strong enough to leave him once for all. i didn't tell any of my friends about this because they hated him (for a good reason) and i was also disappointed on myself for this. he pushed me a lot make it public and i would say to him a lot of times that i wasn't sure. the thing is, that i still got that type of messages on that anonymous confession page and still publish them on my profile while being with my ex in secret, but eventually i stopped doing that. then i finally left my ex (was horrible). but since what happened to me, i cant stop thinking if that was cheating – it was cheating? i'm not sure anymore and i feel like im going to have a relapse.
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