It’s bad really really bad… I obsess about his flaws way too much! What makes things worse is that I feel somewhat normal and I hate it. It’s like the connection is gone and that I am just winging it… I wanna be with him how I was with the connection… I hate feeling fake!! I hate it! It’s not fair at all… I know that no human being is perfect but why can’t I just stop obsessing!? It’s like I have no feelings for anything what’s so ever…. ☹️ I just don’t feel right at all…