hate_ocd.123
- Date posted
- 4y
Whyyocd Whyyocd
- Date posted
- 4y
Hey! I’m really sorry that it’s been hard for you!!! I totally understand. It got worse for me before it got better so maybe that will give you some hope 🥺 it actually happens like that for a lot of people! I remember feeling so anxious and hopeless and I would get these groinal responses that literally lasted the wholeee day. It was terrible. Especially with the thoughts. I was crying every single day. Then I got to a point where I was experiencing a lot less anxiety, groinal responses, and etc. I even felt more confident about my sexuality. But then I got really triggered last week so a lot came back again. But that’s okay. We have OCD and it’s hard thing to live with and it’s going to be a roller coaster. I’m doing better than when I was triggered so that’s still a good thing. I still don’t feel confident in my sexuality but at least I’ve went from what if I’m gay to what if I’m bi (and I have a boyfriend 🥺). So for me that’s improvement. It’s easier but still really hard with all of the intrusive questions. And I obviously want the groinal responses to stop. They are better than before but still. Oh and the intrusive images :/ don’t give up and keep pushing!!! If you ever want to talk just let me know :)
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
- Date posted
- 4y
Sometimes it feels like you’re getting worse in the beginning because you’re purposely triggering yourself. Don’t be discouraged! You can do this, give it some time to work. Don’t allow yourself to fall back into seeking reassurance,doing complusions, etc
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- 16w
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