Hi everyone. I need some advice. I use to love doing my own nails and make up. Now when I don't have either on I get really bad anxiety and feel like I look like a male. However, while I'm doing my nails or makeup I get so many intrusive thoughts. Would wearing makeup and doing my nails be a compulsion or an exposure?

this is random but i have slightly wavy hair 🧍‍♀️but i straighten it before school every single day, and if i dont- i will NOT go. I dont even hate my natural hair and i go out with it all the time in places that arent school- but SCHOOL. I physically will not enter the school if i have not straightened my hair… and if i mid day in school see that my hair has even one wave or slight frizziness i feel this whack of anxiety and suddenly i cant breathe i wanna leave and go home. Just now my dad told me id have to walk to school tomorrow- I CANT do that. Walking after school is fine like idc if my hair gets frizzy after school… but TO school- no… like it genuinely triggers such intense anxiety in me and i cant walk to school because i convince myself (bc its pretty much true) that if i walk to school with my straightened hair its going to get all wavy and frizzy and the thought of going to school like that makes me physically unable to breathe. Idk if this is a compulsion or not.

This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??

I already wrote about this and you really helped me, but now I wondered?! During the erp, I look at a picture of that person with some grimaces that the brain sexualizes, otherwise I have incest ocd! The person is of my gender, I'm not gay otherwise. And then, based on those facial expressions, the brain creates sexual images in my head, which I often feel as sexual and mental arousel. It is enough to see the picture or hear the voice of that person! Based on the pictures it gives me the idea of ​​sexually touching myself on it and climaxing while watching. I feel an urge (I tried something like that a few times ago and now I'm afraid of it), and then the exercise is over, but I stay until I get the answer I want and the feelings that would calm me down, but that happens less and less... Have you had any experience, and is it a compulsion? how can I stay after exercise with that feeling of reality.. Thank you in advance❤️