When I was young, around 9 or 10 years old, i had a dream about me neing with my crush. It was a romantic moment. I liked it so much that when I woke up, I slept again so that I could see the dream again. But now hocd has hit me, I'm 15 now😭😭😭😭😭

As someone who struggles with HOCD, this is you reminiscing of moments you felt clarity and comfort in your sexuality. Your seeking reassure, I do this often myself but I have read it isn't a healthy way to treat this disorder because your giving into the compulsions. Try to train your mind to ignore the thoughts and understand that they are just THOUGHTS. I know it is easier said then done believe me. Struggling with this for years:( I wish you the best of luck