I’ve never shared on here before and I’m not really sure why I’m doing it now, but here we are lol. So I’ve been going through SOOCD for over a year or so now, and it hits in waves. Some days are worse than others. Today was a bit of a shaky day. At work, a girl coworker of mine asked, out of the blue, “do you have a boyfriend?” And at the time I just said “haha I wish!” Bc it’s true. I really do wish. I went on to explain how I never had a boyfriend and we laughed about the topic. She told me she was just curious about it. Everything was fine! But as the day went on, I kept getting stuck on why she would ask me that. I’m pretty new to this place so maybe they’ve been trying to “figure me out”. I hate being perceived Bc what if they see something in me that I don’t. Or what if I’m giving off a particular “vibe”. And then of course my mind keeps telling me that I lied to her, and that I don’t want a boyfriend. Or perhaps I sounded too eager by saying “I wish!” So she probably doesn’t believe me. It’s soo much! And honestly ridiculous. Maybe she was just curious about it. Either way, it doesn’t matter why she asked! But I can’t shake this antsy feeling I have. I need her to explain herself more! Why would she ask me that? Oof. Sorry about this one hahaha