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Ope
8d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD

Every time I get turned on by something that isn’t 100% straight, I lose my mind. It always feels like I invalidate myself and attraction to men

Ope
8d ago
I don’t even want reassurance at this point. It just feels like I need to get this out
Justmesadly
7d ago
Your thoughts and feelings are always valid. You’re worth so much and you have grown so much. It may not feel like it but I see how much progress you’ve made and I’m so proud of you
Ope
7d ago
Thank you so much. It’s been an uphill battle. Trying to stay off this app, trying to stop reassurance, trying to just love my husband. I’m working on remembering sensations are just sensations, it’s just hard. It’s great to see you on here, but it’s amazing also how little you’re on here for reassurance. It’s awesome honestly
Justmesadly
7d ago
@Ope Of course! Up hill doesn’t mean not possible just means a little slower. The cool thing about mental health is no one takes the same path some are short so long some stop for breaks some have dips and peeks but we all get there eventually! Honestly I’ve made a friend on discord who I now text and he has helped me a ton bc when I seek reassurance he’ll be like sorry you’re seeking reassurance I’m not answering you. And I feel like that made me get over not using this app!
Ope
7d ago
@Justmesadly I think I want to transition to just posting if I really feel like I need to, but without providing details or trying to get reassurance. And then eventually just tapering off. But it’s tough!
Justmesadly
7d ago
@Ope That’s a super good plan! I support it!
Justmesadly
7d ago
@Ope All hard things are worth having or however that saying goes
Ope
7d ago
@Justmesadly For sure! I mean I can’t keep living like this.
Justmesadly
7d ago
@Ope I get that! I am still technically in recovery but like right now I’m having a bad hour and I’m ready to die again
Ope
7d ago
@Justmesadly Oh no what happened! I’m with you tbh, walked in on my husband naked and was kind of like yikes because I’m half asleep so I’m freaking out at my response.
Justmesadly
7d ago
@Ope I saw a post about some rape case that’s happening. So my real event ocd is super triggered and I’m back to thinking I need to die bc of my poor choice one time as a 6 or 8 year old. Oh gosh don’t analyze! Anything can be weird when you’re half asleep
Ope
7d ago
@Justmesadly Oh no, I’m so sorry. That is a lot to take in. You’ve got this though! Remember it’s ocd, not true or rational. And yeah, I mean seeing a naked man when he’s just like standing in a bathroom is definitely weird out of context
Justmesadly
7d ago
@Ope I try it just makes me so sad !Maybe laugh it off in your head ? Would that help ? Like you weren’t expecting to see him standing there or it was specifically bc he was naked ?
Ope
7d ago
@Justmesadly I get it, that’s so tough to deal with. But you’ve faced it before; you can do it again! Even if it sucks, which I get. And both! I just opened a door to that lol
Justmesadly
7d ago
@Ope Okay then you should try and laugh it off in your head when that sort of thing happens and that could prevent an ocd reaction
Ope
7d ago
@Justmesadly I don’t get why my mind is like you must constantly be aroused by that. So dumb. Are you doing okay.