Having a tough time with rumination today. It’s shifted from ruminating about my past to more or so trying to ruminate about my future with small hints of my past slipping in here and there. I’ve always been a big over thinker and my brain is really ruminating over a lot of made up scenarios right now. It’s always been hard for me to accept uncertainty and not have total control over the future and my OCD is really attacking that today. These made up scenarios haven’t even happened, nothing in my life has even happened like these made up scenarios and honestly they 9 times out of 10 will not happen in the future either. I’m trying my best to avoid compulsions and to sit with the uncomfortable feelings I have right now. I think I am going to try my hand at another new puzzle today, watch some of my favorite movies, and sit with that annoying yet ‘lovely’ feeling of uncertainty.