girlwithocd..
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CaptainKierkegaardCaptainKierk...
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I am a straight male, and I am not diagnosed with OCD (am wanting to get evaluated soon), but I dealt with lots of insecurity about my sexuality and unwanted thoughts about having sex with men and being a girl among other things. I didn’t have a girlfriend until I was 24. I at least can commiserate with some of what you’re feeling.
girlwithocd..girlwithocd..
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Okay did you ever feel lost or different than others? I compare myself a lot with other friends my age that has tons of experience, and it fuels my anxiety on being gay.
CaptainKierkegaardCaptainKierk...
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@🥰 I definitely felt lost and different and so so many other negative feelings. On the other hand, there’s something meaningful it adds to the relationship, even if I have some anxieties tied to it being my first too.
Piper MontanaPiper Montana
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Yes and I was really attracted to him. Like I was horny every time I saw him. But I find every man attractive so that was hard then I realized that I was able to see that a woman was attractive but I didn’t want to do anything with it.
Imaan7Imaan7
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22 guy here, never had a gf unfortunately.
girlwithocd..girlwithocd..
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Thank you for answering. Maybe I am reassurance seeking but at the same time it’s very nice to know that I am not alone with being inexperienced. I feel so alone
cc97cc97
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I had a short term relationship in HS - nothing serious: now 24 and haven’t experience a real relationship / done anything sexual - definitely plays a huge role in my HOCD
girlwithocd..girlwithocd..
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Okay thank you so much for your honesty! It helps a lot. The reason I got HOCD was because of inexperience and the feeling that something has to be wrong with me because I never want a close relationship or being intimate. I am actually very scared of it.
cc97cc97
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@🥰 Yup!! Same. I’m so scared of Intimacy
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Mt2019
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- 20w
Question about HOCD
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
Anonymous
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- 20w
Hocd
I haven’t been diagnosed with it, but I feel like nothing else describes me better. If you do have this feeling and thoughts, what are some ways to lower your anxiety ?
RW95
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Has anyone gone through this, or currently going through it, need to know that I am not alone in this (18+)
I can't look at 18+ videos, comics, etc. I am straight, but SO-OCD tries to make me think I am not And the thoughts turns to feelings, and makes me scared, uncomfortable, sad, because I know this is not me. And when I try to imagine myself being with the woman on adult videos, and comics, my OCD gives gronal response not at the girl, and it fills me with fear, and anxiety, I always loved, and was attracted to women but I can't and it caused me to be depressed, and I keep ruminating I keep trying to focus on her, but it's so bad that I avoid those all the time now. I am wondering has anyone gone through something like this, or currently is, and wondering how you have done to combat this!
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