Can ocd sexual intrusive thoughts feel so real like it feels like a desire and that it feels like you like it but you really don’t?

Can sexual orientation ocd make you act on your fears and make you have same sex experiences ever and then after the experience realize that’s not what you are or want?

I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.

I’ve been dealing with POCD for months and fake arousal is the worse, especially now it’s changed to when I’m scrolling on an app, etc and happen to come across a child, my Pocd makes me have fake arousal as usually I do a compultion such as trying to stop the arousal from happening such as tending my body, etc. however, recently I’ve enjoyed the fake arousal and wanted it to happen because it feels “nice” and in the moment I “want” the fake arousal over the “child” and in the moment I feel “attracted to the child but after this I’m met with guilt and so so many compultions such as showing, washing my bedding etc etc CAN OCD MAKE YOUT BODY ENJOY SOMETHING!!? Please help!!!