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I am so sorry that you have to go through this.. There is way, definitely there is, but you need time to found it, it's like a maze and it's so hard.. I know, i understand ❤️ but what if what you are going through makes you find the way? Everything has a reason, and if it is happening to you, you have a power to handle it! 💜 So don't give up, i will pray for you, i promes 🙏💜
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Thank you 🙏🏻
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i have been there so many times! sometimes i still find myself there. the question loops are terrifying & you feel so alone. and the depression that comes with it is indescribable. i am so sorry you have to deal with this, but know that this community is right there with you & things DO get better over time. i know it’s a cliche, but when i was at my lowest, the only thing that helped me was knowing that millions of people have felt this way & that’s how OCD operates. it turns everything into a waking nightmare. words cannot describe how HARD it is. you are a fighter & you are NOT alone! i am always here for you 💛
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Thank you so much for understanding 🙏🏻
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@Just Breathe ❤️ Hi again... I wanted to apologize to you Just Breathe... I realize I've been trying to give you advice all day to help you through your OCD, but what you really needed was just someone to understand how you're feeling and be able to relate with you. So, I'm sorry if I've been helping you in the wrong way today or yesterday friend. :( I want you to know that I do understand how you feel though. I have thoughts that tell me things like that too, like today my OCD has been trying to tell me "Oh, you've been watching this show lately, so that means you believe in everything the show is saying rather than Christianity" and I argue back like "No I don't! That's just something fictional in the show" and my OCD is like "No! You believe it!". It's been bothering me today... I didn't bring it up before because I didn't think it would help you in any way... but I realize now that it actually might have helped because you would've seen that I could relate with you. Just last week I broke down and just fell with my face to the floor and just prayed to God to heal me of my OCD because I couldn't take it anymore... it helped, but it was so sad to feel that awful inside. I'm sorry again if I handled your situation in the wrong way today. I hope you'll forgive me. Have a nice night friend.
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@Drew777 No apologies necessary. I truly appreciate your help and all that you’ve done. Ocd just really hurts. I’m really hoping this will all go away. I’m gonna try to sleep and let it just go for now and not worry about it but that’s easier said than done, ya know. Thank you for the help friend!
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@Just Breathe ❤️ Yes, I do know... all too well... and OCD does hurt a lot... I've always been someone who has to apologize all the time. In fact, apologizing is my biggest obsession and compulsion combined together I would say... Sleep well friend... and you're welcome.
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Anything we think, OCD contradicts it with a thought or feeling. I suffer from that too. All of your questions that start with “what if” are definitely OCD oriented.
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You are telling so helpful words, i will tell it too to one human 😂❤️
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Hi friends. I recently had a relapse with OCD and I haven’t felt that real intense pain/fear/panic since I was first diagnosed 3 years ago. It was awful. I’ve been on medication and going to therapy for some time, and I am happy to report I have grown a lot. Long story short, it’s just become a burden for me recently trying to understand why this had to happen to me (and all of you). When I first started following Jesus, it was such a spiritual high. I had so much peace and joy, and I think within that first year with Him I became obsessed with the Bible and learning as much as I could. I think it was a sweet time, but suddenly a switch flipped. I became concerned that all my head knowledge, though I took to heart, became all I cared about. Then all the intrusive thoughts started, and you know the rest. I was relieved when I got my diagnosis, to know that scrupulosity is even a thing. But today, I sit and realize my OCD has taken on other forms (existential/fear of going insane) and then of course I started asking God “why me?”. And then… of course.. I feel bad for asking that. And then it triggered that same old feeling that I’m not in right standing with God. It’s so meta I can’t take it. Does anyone wonder why this had to be? I know the typical answers “we live in a broken world” and “God will use this for His glory” but is anyone just able to sit in that frustration, and work it out? I want to keep fighting, try understanding, like there’s this itch in me that I need to “figure out” something. But I know God isn’t the voice that’s speaking that to me. But gosh, it’s so brutal and hard. I believe God is carrying me through this. 2 Corinthians 12 has been a blessing for this. I just feel so weak. I get upset this is happening, start doubting God, and then feel guilty. It’s a stupid cycle and I see it. I have a very intellectual mind, and I find that most people with this kind of OCD share this trait. But it’s like, the logic doesn’t help. I just want God to sit in my bedroom and tell me it’s real, my faith is intact, and to keep trusting. I don’t know why He won’t do that for me, and I feel guilty for even feeling that way. Anyways, I don’t know what I’m seeking here, but for anyone feeling this way, know you’re not alone. I deeply love you all, even though we are all strangers. 1 Peter 5:9… right?
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- 21w
Please help. I have felt so off/wrong all day. I constantly worry that the “bad guy” is going to get me. I have awful thoughts and I constantly want God to know that I don’t mean these thoughts. I am at a point in my therapy where I need to choose to use my ERP but it feels too scary. I then do compulsions, which makes the OCD worse, which makes me want to use ERP less. And the cycle goes on. I am currently sitting in my car crying because I feel so lost and exhausted. I’m not supposed to figure out my thoughts, but today I just went into a spiral of sadness and depression, thinking that I will always feel like this. When my thoughts got really bad at the end of the day, I tried to use ERP even though I was shaking and not believing my responses and I ended up feeling like I missed something and that I gave into the “bad guy.” I have no one to talk when I’m not doing therapy twice a week. I am alone and have no one to talk to when I am like this… please help
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I have religious OCD and the thoughts have been becoming really bad. I’ve been hitting myself punching myself screaming quietly if that makes sense pulling my hair out talking to myself nonstop. I can’t even hang out with my family without doing these things or going to another room to do these things, these thoughts of overtaking my life I will always be Christian God is most important to me and I’m so scared because these thoughts are terrible. They’re disgusting they never ending. There’s always something going on in my mind. I don’t understand. I’m scared. I’m turning into a bad person. I don’t wanna dishonor the Lord God, I don’t know if this is just OCD or something else.
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