- Date posted
- 4y
- Date posted
- 4y
I can't tell you if it is ocd or not but i hope that you will be alright. I wish i could but i can't šā¤ļø I have a weird thought about children too, sometimes not always but there were moments when i thought what i should not,and i did something years ago which i will don't forget myself. I hated myself for this so fucking much and i deserved it. I hate this, i wish same too, it would be great if things like that doesn't existed. Wtf is that and why we have to go through this sh*t? And why people have a thoughts like this?
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
I am sorry that you are having such a difficult time but I canāt provide you any reassurance. It is so hard but you cannot argue with the ocd. You can say maybe I am, but maybe I am not. Perhaps you could attend a sexual content support group sponsored by NOCD. They are held on Monday and Tuesday.
- Date posted
- 4y
Okay. Thank you. Maybe I should, but is it dangerous to do something like that or try to treat OCD if it could be real and I could be in denial?
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- Date posted
- 19w
18+ TW! Involves sexual content I have learning disabilities which means im always going to be 3-5 years mentally behind from my actual age⦠when I was 14 I remember finding people saying they work with kids āattractiveā and I remember mastu*** over a kid around 5+ but when I was 14 I was either mentally age 11 or 9. So I didnāt know it was wrong, and as soon as I realised I stopped. People say I was young and itās okay but I remember finding people saying they even walked past a nursery āattractiveā but I donāt know if this is even the right word. Maybe cute? Because I find different emotions hard to tell the difference between, so maybe itās cute rather than attractive. I never ever had intentions to do anything to younger individuals, it was just me finding people saying they worked with them etc attractive⦠which my ocd now plays on, because my friend mentioned they were working with kids but idk if it was the real me or not but I genuinely felt like I found it attractive and it was giving my so many groinal responses which then made me feel genuinely aroused like I wanted to do things. This plays on my mind because my ocd will always say ābut you did/do find stuff like this attractiveā but this literally stops me from eating, sleeping or anything. I canāt break from my compultions because what if I do genuinely find it attractive. I donāt think itās even attractive maybe itās cute? Like I find it cute⦠but cuteness can give people feelings down there I guess. I think because if my learning disabilities I found it hard to know the difference between āattractionā and cute so I did stuff over it because it gave me that feeling down there but that could of been cuteness feeling. I just need some support on this.
- Date posted
- 18w
TW So I havenāt been diagnosed with pocd, but many ppl said that I have it. I was in bed when I remembered this time when I first started experiencing what I hope is false attraction not actual pedophilia, Iām looking back on it rn n Iām worried it wasnāt false attraction, I remember feeling a sense of attraction when I saw that kid, I was about14 at the time and the kid was 11 or 12. I remember constantly searching to see if it was normal for a 14 year old to like a 12 or 11 year old, I was worried when I was doing that i think, I also kept walking pass her to look at her i think to check if i was attracted or not, but it makes me worried that I was attracted to her because im worried that i did it bc i was actually attracted. now looking back on it rn, I donāt feel panic, worry, shame, or guilt, I originally only felt panic and worry, never shame or guilt. Now I donāt feel any of it, not feeling panic and worry now makes me think that I am a p, I donāt want to be a p. I hope im not a p, Ive talked to a therapist and theyāve said that itās pocd, but it wasnāt a official diagnosis, Iām worried it was a false diagnosis because I lied on one or two of the questions. I also constantly get senses of what I hope is false attraction when I see some kids, and I keep trying to figure out if it is real or false attraction. Also some other time today I was feeling aroused and I wanted to m#sturbate, but then thoughts of kids started popping up, I think that I didnāt like them, Iām not sure any more, but while I was finishing the thoughts kept comigg by, idk what it means but it felt like I enjoyed it, which made me worried, but after I finished the thoughts disappeared a lot more, idk why that happened idk what it means, could someone give me some advice pls?? I donāt wanna be a pedo. All of that happening makes me feel like I am one, can someone give me advice on whatās happening and what I am??
- Date posted
- 18w
So I just read a Reddit post about how this guy found out that he was a pedo because of how he started feeling that he was still attracted to middle schoolers as a 14 year old in high school and it never changed even when he got into adulthood. Iām currently under the age of 16 and Iām worried of my attraction feelings I felt towards some kids Iāve seen on social media and real life, Iām not sure if they are false or not. I have gotten a diagnosis, I remember lying on 2 questions, saying I didnāt feel aroused and that i donāt enjoy the thoughts n feelings. Iām not sure if i enjoy the thoughts and feelings, and now im worried i about it, i dont feel worry dread panic or shame and disgust when I get those thoughts and feelings anymore. I also remember that when i was 14 I felt attracted to a 12 or 11 year old, i kept going back to look at her idk why, but i think that i was worried because I didnāt want to be attracted to younger aged ppl. Im worried that all of these feelings of attraction arenāt false and that they are a reflection of who i am. I do not wish to be a pedo, nor do I wish to like kids. I know that I wonāt hurt kids, but Iām scared that I am a pedo because of the feelings I get. I donāt understand myself anymore, I hope itās pocd not actual pedophilia, I donāt trust that diagnosis I got because of those 2 questions I lied on, I said that i donāt like those thoughts n feelings even though I donāt know if I really do or not, can someone please help me? Idk what I have anymore, I donāt want it to be pedophilia
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