Youre not gonna get a realization from posting stuff. You cant be obsessing and trust your feelings about the obsession. Until you're mind is clear and you don't care one way or another you're not going to know.
Huh I never thought of this. Thanks for your input this actually really helped. My intention was thinking that if I "came out" I would have an answer. Thanks for your knowledge (:
@ocd_sufferer8 Its actually a common compulsion, some people will date the same sex even if they dont really like them because they think it'll make the thoughts stop. I mean you can get false attractions and groinials from this disorder, you cant trust much.
@BadThoughts I'm learning that as I've only been diagnosed a couple months. I guess this disorder isn't as black and white as my mind makes it out to be. Now I know I need to work on identifying compulsions so thank you for helping me get one step closer to treatment