Has anyone ever struggled with POCD with one specific child?? I’m kind of struggling with this right now

I have and I believe it’s because you can get good looking kids just like adults. And my ocd locked onto this and created more and more anxiety from it - which is something does. When I stopped obsessing over it the POCD about that certain individual became less intense. Chin up x

Sure, its more common than society is aware of due to the stigma surrounding it.

Yep! I’m going through that right now :)

Aw that’s so nice! I’m glad to hear that. I never would have thought to do that. Honestly, I do tend to ignore. Only because I don’t like the possibility of any weird thoughts or feelings. It’s tricky because it’s one of those classic cases of “he’s a cute kid” and has lots of older mannerisms so I’m constantly analyzing if I’m just noticing that or feeling something awful

You’re hitting the nail on the head my guy. Same exact thing as mine. Almost scarily similar! The thinking I’m flirting, older mannerisms all of that. Keep pushing bud. I’m here for you if you need help.

You are the best!

Something that ocd does **

Ok glad I’m not alone. A kid at work has been causing it to act up. He was in a dream of mine once and i felt so guilty. He’s a bit older and a cute kid for his age so I keep thinking it means something deeper. I had to shush him before and I said it in kind of a sarcastic way and I felt something weird and I was like omg did I just flirt with him? It felt strange

I’ll test myself to thoughts and one minute I think it might feel good and the next if doesn’t. It’s so scary

Oh are you? I’m so glad to hear I’m not alone. How’re you doing with it?

It feels so real

Well, I’m definitely not over it at all. But it’s been getting better. The person goes to my program I run. I make sure to hangout with the person as much as possible. (Obviously not in a unhealthy weird way haha) But, when I’m around that person, it’s the perfect time to use it as an exposure. I let my mind run wild, and I don’t try to prove or disprove it. I just let it be. Side note: it’s actually been pretty good. Because the child actually is such a cool person, and getting to know the children in my job is a blessing to me. To know I can be a positive influence on their life, and can make their day better. It helps keep me grounded during all of this. So yeah! Hangout with them as much as you can, let the mind run wild and hopefully it will get better and better with each exposure! I’m rooting for you.

One good thing that happened today was I had to help a kid get changed and I did the entire thing without having any intrusive thought or feeling. I was so focused on helping that it wasn’t until after I was like...wait, nothing happened! It made me feel good

I just experienced that today.. it was so scary there was this really good looking kid with nice features that I would normally like in an older guy and I got butterflies in my stomach and I was like wtf am I attracted to him and I feel like my mind is so confused... I can’t handle the content of these thoughts anymore I feel so fucked up. I’m having cbt which is helping me to react a little less but the thoughts and feelings are just so overwhelming.

This happens to me too often! You aren’t alone. It’s very scary I completely get it