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Someday
35d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD

I need to say this because it’s plaguing my thoughts. When I was a child I used to see stuff on the Tv, hear it get talked about and see people doing stuff that was sexual. It used to confuse me as I didn’t know what it was. So the stuff I would see I would try, even if that was with the same gender. I did it because I thoughts that’s what you did, I didn’t know what I was doing. I was learning if anything. Now I’m sat here stressing out that what I did as a kid means I’m gay. People on here are telling me that if you’ve had a homosexual experience then you probably don’t have SO OCD but I know I’m not gay. It’s not really a homosexual experience. As a kid I wasn’t doing stuff because it was with a girl,I was just doing what well, sometimes what people were telling me to do. My brain tells me over and over again that if I look at someone or have a random thought that I am, but I like guys! I want a guy in the future, I can’t see myself with a women but everyone is telling me that if that happened I’m the past, then your just gay, but I don’t want to be. I know I’m not meant to seek out reassurance, but I really need it

Whyyocd
35d ago
My mom had two experiences around 8 and 10 where she kissed a girl. She’s completely straight. Still with my dad. It’s like what you’re saying. We do stuff as kids when we don’t even know what it means. We also copy. It’s gonna be okay :)
Someday
35d ago
Thank you for sharing. This has made me feel a bit better. I jusr saw a post that said “to have SO OCD you can’t have had a homosexual experience” but like yeah as a kid I would copy. I don’t want that now, but my stress and anxiety tells me I do. But thanks you!!
Whyyocd
35d ago
@Someday Idk who said that but they are very much wrong and you’re welcome. Though I know I shouldn’t be giving you reassurance 😭 but honestly sometimes we need a break from it all. It’s a process
Someday
35d ago
@Whyyocd Yeah I know I shouldn’t but I really really needed it today so thank you so much! The post I saw reallt hurt me so to hear you say that really has helped me a lot!! Thank you 🥺
Whyyocd
35d ago
@Someday Of course 💗