TW POCD Is it possible that pocd can turn into something worse? Why all of a sudden is it that after all this time struggling with pocd that it’s trying to convince me that I’m a monster and that I like the thoughts? Like wth…..I am so confused. It’s like my anxiety isn’t there! I know that I would never in my entire life harm anyone. I think the thoughts are disturbing and weird but I’m guessing because they are sexual intrusive thoughts that maybe that’s why it’s doing that? Because they were sexual? But then my mind tells me that I like it because of them…NO! First of all heck no! And second of all I refuse to ever let that be true. If I give it time will it become more clear to me? Will this go away with time or am I what I fear? I don’t know what else to do. I need to know because I would rather give up than to become a monster……

POCD

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Where’s my anxiety!? It’s like my anxiety is completely gone but then I cry so I’m so confused

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain Thank you so much. It just feels so real. My mind feels like I like the thoughts and I don’t want to. I’m terrified to death that something could be wrong with me. I just want to be free

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain How can I do the exposer?

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain But what about when it tells me that I like/want them? I’m trying to get it to go back to before when I absolutely hated them and I know deep down I still do but for some reason it feels like my brain has broke and I can’t go back

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain I will try that thank you so much for your help

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain Thank you :)

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