TW POCD So I’ve posted about this before and now it’s bothering me again because it’s the next day and it won’t give me a break. Still having the same intrusive thought and it’s telling me that I like/want it or it’s a desire and I’m scared to death. Someone said that it could be false attraction? First of all, eww. Second of all I would rather give up than let it be true so is it ocd or the real thing? I don’t want it to be true but it feels so real…I don’t know what else to do.

But why does it feel like I like it when I don’t want to at all? Is it ocd?

And then when I tell myself I don’t want it I feel like I’m in denial. I’m so scared

It just doesn’t feel right. Before I was able to know that I absolutely hated them but for some reason it’s like there’s one specific intrusive thought that’s trying to tell me otherwise. Why now? I’ve had ocd (main theme pocd) for two years and now all of a sudden it feels like my mind is broken and it’s telling me I like it. It can’t be true

Yes I am going through NOCD and have been diagnosed with OCD and I’m trying to do ERP but it’s so hard to

It feels like I’m lying to myself and that I’m turning into a horrible monster. Why does it feel like I like it I don’t understand

@Just Breathe ❤️ Because you have OCD, and this is exactly what OCD does. Telling yourself you hate these thoughts is sending a signal to your body that you’re in danger, and your body sends a signal back to your mind to take care of that danger. In comes the compulsions. In these situations, I try to sit with the anxiety and not attach to the thought - the more you attach to the thought, the more your nervous system will think it’s under attack, and you will stay in this cycle. Anxiety is temporary, but ocd is a viscous cycle if you continue to perpetuate it. It’s so hard, so so hard, but that’s the work you have to put in to get better!

The thought was so disturbing and disgusting too. And it was about a famil member. Triggered possibly by a movie I’ve seen in the past.

@Just Breathe ❤️ I’ve experienced these things too, you are not alone. But you’re still attaching yourself to the thought, and exhibiting compulsions by attaching it to a past experience with the movie (to help yourself understand why you’re having the thought). These are compulsions, which will keep you in this cycle. Try telling yourself that the thought maybe did or didn’t surface because of the movie, but that thought does not serve your nor reflect on who you are as a person, and let the thought pass on like a moving cloud. Attaching to it is harming you. I hope this helps! I would definitely document this to discuss with your ERP specialist!

@Anonymous Thank you. I’m hoping that’s all it is. I’m hoping it’s just ocd

@Just Breathe ❤️ https://youtu.be/jd4_sbIFt7k

Thank you so much. I watch her videos all the time i couldn’t seem to find a video where she talks about this. I did watch Nathan’s video too. I will definitely watch it thank you

@Just Breathe ❤️ Of course, I hope it helps ❤️