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I think OCD is so powerful that a thought becomes “reality” at a blink of an eye. At least that is the trick your mind plays on you. It can make it feel and seem real but it’s nothing at all.
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Ok thank you
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@Just Breathe ❤️ Hi friend! You know, the more I've been talking with you, the more I really and truly believe that you are showing great signs of improvement. I think it's great that you're really considering all of this from a different perspective now, a perspective that isn't just what your OCD is telling you. I think that's a great idea for you to go around the family member that you've been having this worry about! I think it would be a great ERP exercise for your OCD right now! I also think you should seek out an OCD therapist so you can continue learning more about your specific OCD and how you can properly combat it in the best possible way. A therapist could give you the best advice through all of this! Of course you can continue talking to us on here too though. :) And I really meant what I said Just Breathe, I think you are making great progress through all of this! :) I don't believe you should feel guilt at all Just Breathe, I believe the reason you're not feeling guilt about this is because you truly are coming to the true realization that this thought you've been so worried about really is just your OCD. And I think that is a great milestone that you've reached friend! I'm so glad we can continue to be here for each other through this common struggle we face called OCD. I really hope I'm giving you proper advice... I would hate to steer you wrong... I encourage you though to pray friend... God will guide you through this and lead you in what you're supposed to do as you continue living your life and continue learning to cope with your OCD. We're here for you friend! Stay strong! You got this! :)
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@Drew777 Thank you so much friend I appreciate it! Truly I do 🙃
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I also just want to prove it wrong like “no way in hell I would like this” but when I say that it feels even more real and like I’m in denial. Ihml
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You’re looking for reassurance here! When you’re asking can ocd do this, is this ocd, does anyone else have this symptom , this is seeking reassurance!
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Thank you
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I’ve done things in the past few years that I’m not proud of - only a couple of things I can think of and they didn’t directly hurt anyone at least with is relieving (but maybe indirectly they sort of did or could’ve which makes me hate myself because why did I do that… *how* could I do that…) If I could back and stop those things from happening, I would. I may not have thought about what I was doing at the time, so I didn’t really recognize that they weren’t okay, but that doesn’t excuse them, and I would smack some sense into my past self if I were able. I feel like if anyone knew what I‘ve done, they wouldn’t want anything to do with me. They’d write me off as worthless. And maybe they should to be honest. Now yet another thing has come up - I haven’t done anything, but I had an intrusive thought pop up that made me *think* about doing something and this would be unforgivable in my opinion. Though, to be honest, the things I’ve done before are also somewhat unforgivable in my opinion… 😞 Regardless, I don’t want to do it because I don’t think it’s okay, but I worry deep down that I do. Or that I’m looking for an excuse to make it okay to do. I don’t know, it’s complicated. And I’m upset I even thought about it. I wish I had never seen the thing that triggered that intrusive thought. Yet another thing I would stop if I could. I’ve tried to not think about it or focus on it, but it doesn’t work. Even if it goes away, it just comes back again. I just keep thinking about it and it’s overwhelming. Anyway all of the guilt of this is killing me. I feel like an irredeemably terrible person and it makes me want to give up. I can’t get on with life because it’s paralyzing. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, and at this point, it feels like I don’t deserve to just move on. I can’t live with myself and I feel like I don’t deserve anything anymore. I know a lot of this is probably OCD, but I’m not sure all of it is and I don’t know what to do… if I spoke to a therapist about it, I don’t think I could bring myself to say what I’ve done or what thoughts I’ve had. But if I was told to move on by someone who didn’t know the truth, I would worry they wouldn’t really say that if they knew. Agh, it’s all just a mess 😞
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Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
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Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
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