This post involves discrimination in the workplace. am under a significant amount of stress. I am concerned my employer is attempting to terminate me and believe that my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is being used to discriminate against me. I wont mention said employer, however I work as a fraud investigator and there are significant regulations that exist which I cannot go into detail about my work. I have been employed for this company coming up 6 years, never had a disciplinary act, before I was employed, I advised protection under the Americans With Disabilities act that I had OCD. During training I nearly lost my job. The trainers were in my opinion discriminating against me for taking too many notes, asking questions because I did not feel the answers provided were clear or were not answering questions I had or that I had found contradictions in some cases and that the trainer was taking their frustration out on me. My name was openly displayed in front of the class and I was taken to the back and coached almost everyday to the point I was taken before management and was about to be terminated, I contacted HR and explained my situation and I was left alone. I succeeded with my job and was promoted on multiple occassions, management and peers liked me, no disciplinary actions and I was eventually promoted to a fraud investigator due to my previous background. During my tenure, I found that my tasks had started off very easy and I was quick, but over time my work became much more complex and I was expected to produce much more work in less time, I found the lack of consistency causing me to doubt decisions or that my work was being challenged despite never causing a single loss. Even minor things I felt I was being questioned about my time if I went to use the bathroom, if I had made a joke, had asked for assistance for someone to help with a task, for simply asking procedure questions to management, I was constantly being called into meetings, denied job postings and opportunities despite no formal warnings and interviews going exceedingly well, any critique that was to sound helpful was treated like I was being negative, I felt I had been cheated out of bonuses and punished for things I literally had no control over. As of recent, management has been aggressively staking out esentially anything I do like a pitbull that just won't let go. I genuinely am trying to do my job, stop fraud and properly investigate but I feel like this is being hindered because any decision I make is the wrong decision, Yes or No doesn't resolve the issue. I am currently paying a mortgage, have a wife and child to support and this has taken a dramatic toll on everything to the point of tears, anger, depression and anxiety not knowing what to do. I have attempted to resolve this in so many different ways but I feel powerless in my words, actions or anything to prove I am doing the right thing. I have asked and invited management to watch what I am doing. Just recently after asking to speak to a supervisor, I was advised I was being referred for disciplinary action as a result of this. I recently had to contact our HR to provide ADA documentation but I feel like the people I report to are going to continue to make my life a living hell and I am just lost at this point.

I posted the other day about my subtype of staring ocd but I’m supposed to start a new job next week. I work in wellness/beauty and will be seeing people half naked. It doesn’t trigger me as I’m treating clients but only when I’m not supposed to be looking (like normal interactions). It happens when people wear very revealing clothes or are super curvy and my eye goes to that area. It also happens when people are adjusting themselves and my eye goes to their hands. It’s very embarrassing and I quit my last job because of this and I don’t want to make more people feel uncomfortable. It left me very depressed and hopeless. It’s such a frustrating type of ocd to deal with because it impacts me financially and socially. I just want to feel okay. Anyways, I’m writing this because I’m wondering if I should share with my new employer about this issue so I don’t weird anyone out or keep it to myself? I’m not sure what to do. I need money as I have a mortgage and two kids and would like to help my husband. I’m currently on Zoloft 50mg, have done therapy but this is such a hard type to treat as it’s not the cleaning type. I know I’m not supposed to ask for advice about what to do but I need to know so I can make a decision and not get cold feet.

Does anyone have OCD regarding always feeling like you are not good enough at your job? I'm 58 years old now I've had OCD since childhood. Every job I've been at I never felt as good as my colleagues. I am a nurse but I worked at that for 15 years I had a breakdown of sorts in 2017 and went on disability. I now work part time as a a swim instructor for kids. I always was afraid of killing someone when I was a nurse. Then I tried dog grooming but I was afraid I would do it wrong and hurt the dogs. At least now the stakes are lower. But my OCD is the same. I work with colleagues who are about 40 years younger than I am . I am afraid of teaching certain classes bc I feel like I wouldn't do as good a job as someone else. I know I can do it but it's like I have a fear of not giving them their money's worth. I've been at my current job for 2 years . I've gotten very positive comments from my managers but I can't seem to believe them. I feel a lot of shame bc I lost a lot of my life to OCD and I am at an age where people are starting to retire after long and successful careers and here I am working at an entry level job. I'm planning on trying to get out of my comfort zone and teaching some of the classes I'm afraid of .it's really hard. I'm always scared what if I lose my benefits and had to work again as a nurse how would I do it.

I've been having a really tough time lately with a recent workplace interaction that occurrd today, and my mind just keeps replaying the events over and over. It feels like an endless loop, and I'm finding it incredibly hard to let go. I'm trying to figure out if this intense replaying is more about my OCD, or if it's a typical reaction to a stressful situation that's being amplified by my OCD tendencies. The specific details of the incident involve a colleague engaging in a racially insensitive discussion that I tried to disengage from. Despite my attempts to steer the conversation away and remove myself, the situation escalated with direct confrontation and accusations. This led to significant emotional distress for me. Later in the day, the same colleague misunderstood another conversation, making baseless accusations and publicly confronting me in a very aggressive way. I kept quiet throughout, just a bit of muttering. The emotional toll of these interactions has been immense. Now, my mind is stuck. I can't seem to stop dwelling on every word, every gesture, and every imagined alternative outcome. Hoping I'm not viewed as the "angry black woman" which is such an affair narrative why can't I state grievances of racism, without this narrative. * how do you manage the relentless replaying of stressful workplace interactions? What are your go-to coping mechanisms when your mind gets "stuck" on these loops? * Have you found any specific strategies helpful for navigating interpersonal conflicts at work when your OCD makes it difficult to process and move past them? * When you're feeling emotionally vulnerable due to work stress, what helps you prevent these situations from turning into prolonged rumination cycles? Any advice or shared experiences would be incredibly helpful. I'll be so grateful for any assistance. I just feel like I'm not good at life.