This post involves discrimination in the workplace. am under a significant amount of stress. I am concerned my employer is attempting to terminate me and believe that my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is being used to discriminate against me. I wont mention said employer, however I work as a fraud investigator and there are significant regulations that exist which I cannot go into detail about my work. I have been employed for this company coming up 6 years, never had a disciplinary act, before I was employed, I advised protection under the Americans With Disabilities act that I had OCD. During training I nearly lost my job. The trainers were in my opinion discriminating against me for taking too many notes, asking questions because I did not feel the answers provided were clear or were not answering questions I had or that I had found contradictions in some cases and that the trainer was taking their frustration out on me. My name was openly displayed in front of the class and I was taken to the back and coached almost everyday to the point I was taken before management and was about to be terminated, I contacted HR and explained my situation and I was left alone. I succeeded with my job and was promoted on multiple occassions, management and peers liked me, no disciplinary actions and I was eventually promoted to a fraud investigator due to my previous background. During my tenure, I found that my tasks had started off very easy and I was quick, but over time my work became much more complex and I was expected to produce much more work in less time, I found the lack of consistency causing me to doubt decisions or that my work was being challenged despite never causing a single loss. Even minor things I felt I was being questioned about my time if I went to use the bathroom, if I had made a joke, had asked for assistance for someone to help with a task, for simply asking procedure questions to management, I was constantly being called into meetings, denied job postings and opportunities despite no formal warnings and interviews going exceedingly well, any critique that was to sound helpful was treated like I was being negative, I felt I had been cheated out of bonuses and punished for things I literally had no control over. As of recent, management has been aggressively staking out esentially anything I do like a pitbull that just won't let go. I genuinely am trying to do my job, stop fraud and properly investigate but I feel like this is being hindered because any decision I make is the wrong decision, Yes or No doesn't resolve the issue. I am currently paying a mortgage, have a wife and child to support and this has taken a dramatic toll on everything to the point of tears, anger, depression and anxiety not knowing what to do. I have attempted to resolve this in so many different ways but I feel powerless in my words, actions or anything to prove I am doing the right thing. I have asked and invited management to watch what I am doing. Just recently after asking to speak to a supervisor, I was advised I was being referred for disciplinary action as a result of this. I recently had to contact our HR to provide ADA documentation but I feel like the people I report to are going to continue to make my life a living hell and I am just lost at this point.

I've been having a really tough time lately with a recent workplace interaction that occurrd today, and my mind just keeps replaying the events over and over. It feels like an endless loop, and I'm finding it incredibly hard to let go. I'm trying to figure out if this intense replaying is more about my OCD, or if it's a typical reaction to a stressful situation that's being amplified by my OCD tendencies. The specific details of the incident involve a colleague engaging in a racially insensitive discussion that I tried to disengage from. Despite my attempts to steer the conversation away and remove myself, the situation escalated with direct confrontation and accusations. This led to significant emotional distress for me. Later in the day, the same colleague misunderstood another conversation, making baseless accusations and publicly confronting me in a very aggressive way. I kept quiet throughout, just a bit of muttering. The emotional toll of these interactions has been immense. Now, my mind is stuck. I can't seem to stop dwelling on every word, every gesture, and every imagined alternative outcome. Hoping I'm not viewed as the "angry black woman" which is such an affair narrative why can't I state grievances of racism, without this narrative. * how do you manage the relentless replaying of stressful workplace interactions? What are your go-to coping mechanisms when your mind gets "stuck" on these loops? * Have you found any specific strategies helpful for navigating interpersonal conflicts at work when your OCD makes it difficult to process and move past them? * When you're feeling emotionally vulnerable due to work stress, what helps you prevent these situations from turning into prolonged rumination cycles? Any advice or shared experiences would be incredibly helpful. I'll be so grateful for any assistance. I just feel like I'm not good at life.

I’ve been spiraling since a workplace incident last Thursday. I had an uncomfortable and tense interaction with a colleague, and it triggered a lot of obsessive rumination. I spent the whole weekend crying, panicking, and replaying everything that happened. Today, I went back to work — and it was really hard. Everyone acted like nothing happened. They joke with him, treat him normally, even though he bullied me and I’m just… sitting there. I didn’t greet him, and he didn’t greet me. I kept to myself, answered questions when I had to, but didn’t socialize. Now I feel scared. Like I’m walking on eggshells. I keep thinking: “What if I say something wrong?” “What if I make a mistake and they say, ‘You see? She’s the problem’? Acting holier than thou & she's a bigot too!" I know this is partly my OCD and trauma talking, but it feels so real. Like I’m one wrong move away from being blamed or alienated. I’ve even started eating lunch in my car to feel safe. I’m trying so hard to hold boundaries, stay professional, and protect my peace. But I’m exhausted. I feel like a shell of myself and I’m scared I’ll break. I was already a little on eggshells cause most of my colleagues say or do something bigoted every now & then...my bigotry ocd is always scared that when I don't confront them. I'm condoning it & becoming them. I'm exhausted. I want to work remotely so I can stay isolated from people. I don't think I'll ever heal from this. I feel like this incident is one of those that permanently changes you. Like when my parents & siblings says I'm not the same anymore. I'm more panicked etc.

This is my first week back to work after being off for 6 months to grapple with my OCD as it became extremely debilitating. I made mistakes when my OCD returned and self medicated with alcohol. Partly due to the OCD but also due to severe back pain from working the California fires in January. Long story short I was pulled over and arrested for DUI and although I was a low BAC it was still enough to be taken in and since then I have hired a lawyer to handle it as I dealt with my OCD treatment. I also returned to work and at which point they had been aware of the dui due to a license information pull by the dmv. Even though I have already had the DMV side dismissed as it was proven I wasn’t over the limit while driving, I am still trying to beat the court side. Either way I am now dealing with a ton of fallout at work for this even if I’m proven to be innocent. It has really put me into a dark place and it makes me fantasize about ending it. I know that, that isn’t the way and that’s not the way to win at this. I’m really digging in to sitting with the uncomfortable and what ifs and trying not to solve for problems that have not happened yet.