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Yep, OCD will do whatever it takes to stay in control. Setbacks are going to happen. You are going to have good days and bad days. But it sounds like you are really making progress. It also sounds like you are learning to recognize how OCD operates and beating it at its own game. ERP makes a huge difference as well. Keep moving forward one day and one step at a time. Love your attitude. Keep fighting until you reach recovery or die trying. That attitude will take you a long way. Just rember, recovery is not a race. Some people recover in a relatively short time, while for others, it takes longer. Both are okay! This quote has helped me so much "Speed doesn't matter. Forward is forward." You can do it! We both can.
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- 3y
Thank you ❤️
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- Date posted
- 3y
This is a common experience for all of us with ocd. You don’t need to feel bad about yourself. We are human working on recovery. A huge kudos to your fiancé as he won’t provide reassurance. Treat yourself. You are working hard.
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Thank you 🙏🏻
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Each night I go to bed determined to stop compulsions and start beating this disorder. Then I wake up and it smacks me in the face first thing and I’m doing a compulsion before I know it. I told my therapist that I would try to handle it like we do in session, but I’ve already failed. It seems like I can’t bring ERP into my “real” life.
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