I feel arousal about my thoughts no one else does on here

When I say I feel like I like a thought, I don’t mean the OCD is telling me like a thought or that I concluded that from a physical sensation. I mean, I genuinely feel like something in my brain lights up and it feels like I like it mentally. Whenever I hear people talk about liking thoughts (excitement, arousal), I always see things about groinals or heart flutters. Physical things. I don’t think I really ever see people talk about the mental sensation if this is even a thing. I just wanna know if anyone relates to this or has found an explanation for this because seeing it from an analytical point of view seems to help me sometimes. This is so, *so* especially hard for pocd themed thoughts :( Anyone relate?

I see people post about how they feel like their thoughts are real. For me personally I deal with sexual intrusive thoughts and they feel real to me because it feels like I enjoy them. And when I say “it feels like I like them” that’s the same for me as saying “I like them” but some people say that’s different. Idk just curious as to what you guys feel!

constantly when I deliberately imagine sex scenes looking at the photo that triggers me (my sister's face), it's like I'm imagining, projecting how I see myself how self pleasure myself, and I feel like I can, I have some drive, and it's like there are no limits, like the more I imagine the stronger it is... it scares me a lot, and I think I'm the only one who has it that way, and that it's not part of ocd...